The Truth About Teal Swan

NOTE: This interview between Jessica Schab and myself regarding my experience living with Teal Swan took place in August of 2014. To serve the greater good of understanding and public interest, the transcript is being shared below.

CAMERON CLARK
I used to live with Teal Swan, and I just wanted to say kudos to you for being willing to point out the potential dangers and pitfalls of blindly following toxic cult leaders and new age con-artists such as Teal.

JESSICA SCHAB
You seem to be one of the few who have lived with her and have been able to see this without feeling the need to protect and defend her. So kudos to you as well! Care to share your story on how you came to this conclusion? If not, no worries.

CAMERON CLARK
Yes, I would be willing to share my experience and conclusions with you. I have been hesitant to speak out publicly for a number of reasons, but I believe I've finally gained enough clarity and perspective on my journey now to put it to words, and I truly appreciate what you are doing. I'll send you my take on all things concerning Teal Swan soon.


JESSICA SCHAB
Thank you. I appreciate your being able to come out of the closet. I know so many who feel the same as you, but are unable to go public about it for some reason. I think it is very important for many reasons. Mainly, so what happens to you does not happen to others. It’s also to get the followers to snap out of it. Especially the ones that make their kids watch Teal. Ugh. We just want people to take their minds back from this new age BS and all the beliefs and ideologies out there. We use as many examples as we can, and Teal is a huge one at this time. Take your time, and send it to me when you're ready. I would be most curious to hear about your headspace before getting into Teal stuff, and your head space while in it.  Maybe you sensed it was a scam, but you were in such need for help that you overlooked it only to find out later when you could not ignore it anymore? It’s important for people to understand why they get involved or care about this stuff to begin with. I’m also curious why you have felt compelled to stay in the closet about this for so long. I’m guessing because Tealers can be nasty to anyone who is not pro-Teal. But they do not scare me.

CAMERON CLARK
Ok, I appreciate you narrowing things down to your areas of interest. It’s a very long story.  I have been trying to organize some of my thoughts, and it's difficult to know where to start. So thank you.

As I sit here, there are a myriad of reasons why I haven't wanted to say anything until now, but none of them have to do with defending Teal. A lot of it boiled down to fear, yes. But, I was actually going through quite an introspective healing and deprogramming process this past year.

I have my own suspicions that Teal may be part of a larger agenda than anyone else is willing to publicly acknowledge at this juncture. I was approached by some people during Teal’s New York workshop right before I fled from Utah. These people proffered some pretty shocking arguments suggesting that Teal may be an illuminati pawn involved in promoting some new world order agenda in the new age arena aimed at moving people towards a one world religion. They planted a seed, and when I got back from New York, I didn’t know what to believe, or exactly how far Teal's reach might be. Some things I witnessed while I was in her sphere made me fear for my safety. I was exploited once by Teal, and I am hesitant to be exploited by anyone else in the spiritual community who has an agenda that I am not aware of.

That being said, I have had soul retrieval work done with two shaman and a well known psychic in the professional spiritual community who claimed to know exactly what Teal is all about, and yet they have never publicly said anything. Why is that?

For example, I can share a clip from a personal reading I had done with radio show host and psychic from the In5D community, Helaine Lipson. She actually started talking about Teal during my personal reading after I had left Utah.  Mind you, I did not mention Teal, nor did I necessarily want to know anything about her during my reading. When I asked Helaine why she even mentioned her name, she said, "Well, it's your reading, so you’re open."

Here is some of what she had to say--- transcribed from my mp3 recorded reading with Helaine.

The person Teal Scott, is not really Teal Scott. And that’s not even the spirit of Teal Scott. That is dark, leviathan entities that are basically prostituting the body of Teal Scott, and working through her... So, she’s not bad, but she is--- I guess you’d say, possessed.

I had never heard the word "leviathan" before talking to Helaine. After I googled it, I understood it to mean Satanic, Luciferian, or reptilian. It all basically means the same thing to me. In any case, it was energies I didn't understand and did not want to play with anymore. I also, at the time, did not want a connection to anyone who was knowingly promoting this type of energy. I didn't know who I could even talk to about this stuff.

I didn't mean to go off on a tangent there. I am drafting out what I intend to send you elsewhere. I promise if you give me some time, I will send you something coherent along the lines you mentioned above. Writing this stuff out is honestly very therapeutic for me. Since it has been so long, and I thought I had already processed most of this, I do want to take some time to be sure what I write comes from a centered space. I feel like healing comes in layers. Some of us move faster than others. So, thank you for your patience and your inspiration to do something like this.

JESSICA SCHAB
There was a video on youtube called Teal Scott Creeps Me Out, which indicates that she has connections with the elites. I am not ruling that out, and I would not be surprised. As for being possessed by evil; it’s not in the way we think. She is possessed by ideas of fame, fortune, being great, and such. Although, this does make her into a scam artist, and twisted, and yes, invite all kinds of beings that we can consider to be evil. But they are mostly predators that feed on the energy of insecurity. I do not believe her story at all. If it’s true she would be severely mentally disabled and want to catch these people that had done it. She would not want to get fame for it, while letting them get away with it. Nor would they let her live to be a public figure either. What bothers me, is this story and invented past keeps her safe from anyone questioning her, because they all feel bad for her. It’s like her ace card she plays when she needs to. It  makes me sick. And yes it is therapeutic to share. You're welcome to share whatever you like with me, just so you have some outing of release to feel ok to do it. I will only share the parts you want me to if you like. And yes, you have the time to get to it when you can. No problem.

CAMERON CLARK
I understand all too well the enabling effect these sycophant followers have on someone who is as delusional and mentally unstable as Teal.  I witnessed a very real seeming seizure while I was living with her, along with many other award winning, mentally disturbed performances. It was a traumatic thing for myself to witness at the time, and the idea that someone could be faking something like that never even entered into my realm of possibility, until now. I now see how she was using this to manipulate the small group of us who were living with her. It certainly had the effect on me of taking her stories at face value at the time.  Now I have a very different perspective of course. I was also the target of her ire during several of her incredibly abusive and devaluing Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)  tirades, for which there was always some sob story later to excuse her behavior. It always related back to some "trigger" from her childhood. During one of her most notable BPD episodes, she became so angry with me that she tried to convince me to commit suicide while the other members in our group sat around watching her. Thank god I've never been suicidal in my life.

I intimately understand how she uses her elaborate and gory stories of abuse and feigns vulnerability in order to manipulate and polarize her followers into protecting her. Teal won't ever let go of or transcend any "victim" status (real or imagined), because she is too busy wielding it like a weapon to suit her purposes. I do believe she suffered some abuse (most likely sexual in nature). But that’s only because it just seems so unlikely that a person could be that twisted without ever having suffered some very real trauma. However, it is entirely possible that she confabulated all the different stories she tells her followers in her mind (possibly in therapy) to cover up the truth of what actually went on with her.  The macabre stories of abuse she tells (over and over) reinforce her delusions. These stories also serve the convenient purpose of garnering sympathy from her followers, who will then be willing to silence anyone who may question her teachings or story in the name of protecting her. I definitely understand how I was initially roped into her manipulative game of chess. Teal is many things, but top on my list, she is a very sick individual with the potential to do more harm than good on the path she is currently on.

It's definitely taken me a while to gain some clarity on this subject, and I went through quite an emotional and spiritual detox after my dealings with Teal and her "intentional community" (aka new-age alien cult) last year. It was a painful disillusionment process. I've since had to let go of a lot of judgement both of myself and Teal in order to understand that I was not a victim.  It's taken almost a year of self-analysis and self-discovery to finally came to a place of understanding of why my soul chose to go through such a chaotic and confusing experience. I understand now, that I needed to learn to trust myself and my inner guidance. I also needed to learn that we don't come to this earth needing a guru to follow. I believe we come here to remember how to listen to ourselves to find the answers that we seek. I am grateful for the lessons hard earned, and I have come to understand that Teal was just playing the role at the soul level that I had asked her to play for me (albeit a dark one). I do not wish for others to get caught up in the distractions of her polarizing web during this critical time of ascension. I believe humanity is DONE learning through confusion, separation, and  suffering. Those are old programs that have served for a very long time, but have now been completely played out. We are moving towards unity consciousness, and while Teal's teachings initially hooked me by including universal truths like "we are all one," I quickly realized she represents anything but ONENESS.

JESSICA SCHAB
Well Cameron-- no, you are not a victim, but nor did you choose this either. Please do not fall into that new age trap that we all chose this experience, and pain because it’s bullshit. No person chooses to be raped or have their family killed or maimed. This is new age crap, so as to not be responsible or think. It’s a convenient answer that creates deeper psychological problems.

It’s not divine, and it’s not meant to be. That is garbage that must be thrown out of our head, if we really want to understand and end the abuse once and for all. Teal is not playing her role on a soul level, but as long as people believe that, then she continues to get away with what she is doing. She must not anymore, because then that means that people are not done with confusion. And I am sorry to say there is no shift or ascension. Its another new age hoax that makes a person wait and be exploited forever for something that will never ever come. Every time in history they said and believed, now is the time, and where are they now? No one has ever been enlightened, and no one ever will, because it’s a dirty trick. It’s not going to help us understand the pain and mess in the world, only prolong it. And no, you do not need to trust yourself or your inner guidance, because trust is a hoax also that is invented by people who are confused. Where is trust in the forest? Do you trust the trees? Do the trees trust you? No. When we trust, we always end up being betrayed,  If we understand what trust actually is, then there is no need for trust or bonds.There is also no need for the opposite which is betrayal and such. I’m sorry, but as people get more interested in the new age and spirituality, they are not done with confusion at all. In fact, they are going more in that direction.

Hence, we have more violence, confusion, and suffering for many-- like what happened to you, but maybe worse. Look how many are following Teal and living with her now? Imagine them going through what you went through? AND defending it. That is confusion, and wanting more confusion.

So no, humanity is not done with it at all, unless they are willing to understand why they even bother to go or search there in the first place.

CAMERON CLARK
I need to snap out of these dangerously warped belief systems i've adopted since Teal. It's been difficult to sort through it all on my own. I really like the direction you are going here. I still clearly need to do more detoxing.

The only thing I have come to realize  is that I still know absolutely nothing for sure about this holographic illusion that we're living in, but I am probably going to spend the rest of my life trying to figure it out.

I do want to ask you whether you believe our souls choose to experience anything? I do actually resonate with the idea that our souls are driving our experiences regardless of our waking thoughts. I believe our bodies are much like a car, and our soul is actually driving that car. I don't believe in most of the the basic LOA BS teachings that claim your thoughts create your realities. I do have faith in the divine order of things. While our conscious thoughts may only have less than 10 percent of an effect on our experience, I think the desire and intention for our soul to experience and expand in consciousness does play a part in our waking experience. Is this belief damaging in your opinion?

I think I grasp the idea that if we need trust, then it is only one side of the polarity coin. The other side of the coin being betrayal. So then as long as we value and chase/cling to trust, we are always going to experience the pendulum swinging the other way to betrayal? Are you saying that basically trust is just an exercise in polarity?

Eh. please disregard that last bit. I already know the answer. I find this New Age arena is fraught with peril. If I even need to ask whether a belief system is damaging, I need to disregard it and go the other way.

So, I had contact with Jared Michael Dobson this morning for the first time since I had left Teal's cult. He is the only member from Teal's circle who I have spoken to since I left. This was the first conversation I had with him in a year. He said he has spoken to you?

JESSICA SCHAB
Yes, but he did not respond to my letter, because he wants to protect her still. He is still under her spell and still in the new age spell as well.

CAMERON CLARK
I wonder if that is what the strange timing is about. Right as I am about to speak up, I get a warning about you from him.

JESSICA SCHAB
What was the warning? I wrote him a casual letter about being a former spiritual speaker and such. Maybe he saw some of my other posts on Teal and freaked out.

CAMERON CLARK
He said you are out to be famous just like Teal.  He said that it sounds like I know what I’m doing, but he said everyone else he has spoken to in the new age community is fucked up and crazy. He has decided to go back to school and become a lawyer. So, I'm taking what he said with a grain of salt, mind you. He said there was a time he really wanted to figure out a way to help other people who got sucked into damaging abusive situations like he and I were with Teal, but he claims anything new age, “is a tar pit black hole of shit.” He said the more he thinks about it, the less he wants anything to do with the new age community. That’s why he took his article on cults and Teal down.

JESSICA SCHAB
Hahah are you kidding me? I do not want to be famous at all. If I did, I would not be exposing Teal. I would be encouraging her instead, but this stuff is dangerous. I used to be very famous for being a new age speaker, but I do not want it. Right now, I am destroying my fame. So where did he get info like that? I also rarely make videos. From looking at his wall, he looks to be pretty messed up and crazy himself. A lawyer, wow, that’s just as bad. I am not new age at all. I am anti bs and stupidity. It’s not just in the new age, but religion, society, media, culture, values, etc.

CAMERON CLARK
Yes, I didn't get that impression from you. I had blocked him from Facebook when I left the house over a year ago, and haven't spoken to him in over a year. I don’t know what he has posted on his wall. We instant messaged on gmail this morning. I have an idea he is disturbed, and Teal did him absolutely no favors. It's the timing more than anything.

JESSICA SCHAB
And he has a responsibility to expose Teal not protect her. She was the one that manipulated him into being her boyfriend simply because he was the only one not into her.  She could not stand that, so of course she had to tell him he was her soul mate, and they were meant to be with each other. So they got to together, she got him to raise her child, because she did not want to. She hated parenting, so she went to work on her fame and building her community, to help raise her kid too.Then when she was done with him, she publicly humiliates him, calls him a psychopath, and says he is trying to destroy her and such. Then she goes on to marry another guy after knowing him for  weeks, who is said to be successful. Then she goes on to make videos on the topic of relationships. Meanwhile, Jared is trying to recover, but still protect her, and letting other guys have the same thing done to them by Teal. I have read lots of his posts. He says she is a liar, and a cutter, and is making a cult. He still says he loves her and wants her to be happy. So he is still manipulated by her in that he cannot see, it is not love. It never was. She puts pressure on guys to make her happy, give her gifts, and protect her. If they can't, she makes them feel like shit. But no one can protect her from her demented mind, as it turns on her more and more. That is why her bubble will burst in 2/3 years tops. And she will most likely be replaced by someone younger with a better marketing backer.

CAMERON CLARK
I don't know what kind of reach she has. I know exactly what she did to me, Jared and her son.  I was there, and I bonded with that little boy myself. It's an awful environment. She is a nightmare. It was horrible. I just don't know what she is capable of psychically. If she has corded me, has help from leviathan entities, or elites, or whatever else, I didn't know whether it was a good idea to make myself a target. So I have been wrestling with these fears for the better part of a year.
 That has changed since then, and I agree with you on all points with Jared. I do think she fucked him up, and has an incredibly strange hold on him. Stockholm Syndrome comes to mind.

JESSICA SCHAB
Well, whatever you want to share, you can stay anonymous. We can just get your story out there to maybe help prevent this happening to others. But yes, I can only imagine how messed up Winter is going to become. I can imagine how much she hates being a mom, because she gets no attention for it. She feels no specialness at all for being a parent, so she rarely sees him. She wrote in her blog about only spending time with him like one day a week.

CAMERON CLARK
Exactly. That little guy was attached to me for a time, and it broke my heart to leave the way I did. It was the hardest part about leaving. I’m just one of the many transient caregivers now.

JESSICA SCHAB
She has an incredibly strange hold on everyone. Look at how that girl was attacked for making the video on Teal creeping her out. Teal calls them her “army.” That’s scary. There is nothing loving from them though. They always claim love and light, blindly following and not thinking. I’m sure Winter sensed the insanity in everyone, and felt you were the least messed up, so he clung to you.

CAMERON CLARK
I have been revisiting my mindset and thought patterns from that time for myself the past couple of days. Its scary.

JESSICA SCHAB
I can imagine.

CAMERON CLARK
I can't say it feels great to spend time in that level of consciousness, but if it can help people and myself understand, I am willing to do my best.

JESSICA SCHAB
You also are helping me see how accurate I am with what I detect from her, as I have never met her. There were  just people who wrote me who were messed up by her. I read some of her blogs, and saw some of her videos. That’s all. So thank you for confirming as well. That is why I am doing what i am doing, not for fame. You cannot get fame from this. It pisses everyone off. People want motivation and solutions to encourage their spiritual drugs, not expose them.

CAMERON CLARK
Oh you are welcome! You are helping me more than I even realize.

JESSICA SCHAB
I’m glad to hear that.

CAMERON CLARK
I understand on a deep level what you are doing. I may not always get it at the conscious level right away, but it is having a profound effect. It is challenging to the ego mind, but I know it is good for people at the subconscious level to snap out of it. I do appreciate what you are doing. It has to start somewhere, and what you are doing can't be easy. Everyone comes at you with resistance at first. It will change, and you will have been a forerunner before long though.

JESSICA SCHAB
Yes always resistance. People constantly saying I'm negative or whatever.

CAMERON CLARK
 “The multitude is always wrong.” I can't remember who quoted that, but I feel like it's true.

JESSICA SCHAB
Yep. So however you want to go about this we can. We can even do a skype audio chat. I can put it up. Or whatever. It’s up to you, but people have to know. I can also not stand how Teal promotes sex and says that women prefer men who are rough with them, otherwise they are considered weak. I’m sorry but that is sick. It's like get a man who abuses you, and dominates you, because that's how Teal likes it. And all men who are not, call them weak.I am so concerned about the many who have their young daughters watch her videos to be like her. I am concerned about guys learning how to exploit woman.

CAMERON CLARK
I KNOW. She is obsessed with sex. It's grotesque. With all the constant talk of sex in the house I was sick to my stomach often hearing these things. She is a sadomasochistic nymphomaniac, and I tried to tell her more than once how disturbing it is to hear that stuff from her. I explained that it’s not normal. I even suggested she get counseling from a sex therapist. It did not go over well.

JESSICA SCHAB
Its a good tool to manipulate a guy with as well. Poor people who have to live in the house and hear about her having sex with her guy, and then have her trying to seduce them too.

CAMERON CLARK
Yes, but I almost felt like she was trying to make Fallon into some kind of rapist. I was so disturbed, I just tried to tune it out.

JESSICA SCHAB
That’s what I mean, and he does not want to see it. And then she said, “you’re not right for me,” cause he can not rape her.  He left feeling like a failure, confused, and less than a man.
Do you know how many woman got upset with me, cause they let their daughters watch and follow Teal? I told them if you let them do that, and they act like her, they will end up getting raped and think that’s love? That makes it into Stockholm Syndrome.

CAMERON CLARK
No, I had no idea you said that, BUT IT'S LIKELY TRUE.

JESSICA SCHAB
So many mothers were like, no, if my daughters watch Teal, they will not be raped. How dare you say such a thing? You try to warn people, and they are so blind.

CAMERON CLARK
They are blind to it. I gave up speaking out about it because of fear. I shouldn't have.

 Right off the bat in Teal's strange new land of make-believe and TMI that I found myself living in, I was disturbed to learn about Teal's pregnancy fetish. With Fallon and Teal's constant talk about sex in the house, I learned that Teal is not only a sadomasochistic nymphomaniac, but Teal also divulged that she apparently gets turned on by the thought of babies, breastfeeding and pregnancy. Teal also claimed that her guides had told her that she would soon be having a baby girl named Aurora with Fallon. She claimed the baby would be part of her source stream and would basically be an exact replica of herself. After witnessing Teal's inability to adequately care for her son Winnie, I couldn't help but try to discourage Teal and Fallon from bringing another baby into that dysfunctional mess. I remember feeling Teal's wrath after I suggested that Teal and Fallon might try to get a puppy together first before they tried to have another baby.

Teal admitted that when she feels challenged, her empathy turns off. She needs to win. Winning is the most important thing to her. After her NLP (Neuro-linguistic programming) session, Teal once wrote this sentence on the sliding glass mirror of her closet door in lipstick:

Is winning still most important when it comes to Winnie?

Several months into things, Fallon eventually became so worried about bringing another baby into an abusive life with Teal that he went and got a vasectomy against Teal's wishes while they were still together. I believe that is actually what started the true demise of Teal and Fallon's relationship. But that's another story.
 BTW, Fallon is what Jared changed his name to based on Teal's recommendation. That's right, she wanted him to have NO sense of Identity outside of her, so she convinced him to change his name to something she liked.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Yes, I know Fallon is what Jared changed his name to because she liked it better. So, like a good puppy, he did what she asked. but getting a vasectomy. Wow, that takes balls. Excuse the pun. That must have pissed her off. Good one, Fallon. I wonder how long it's going to last with the guy she is with now.

CAMERON CLARK
 He's used to illuminati queen bees. For chrissakes her new husband/(suspected mk ultra handler) was a personal assistant and real estate manager for Madonna for years in England. He's so used to crazy, difficult, demanding, divas, it's hard to say how long he will stick around.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Oh, I did not know that.

CAMERON CLARK
 Yes. It's online. I will send you a link unless he took it down. There is a reason I was scared. I don’t know what those people are into.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Tell my why you are or were scared.

CAMERON CLARK
 If she is involved in MK ultra, there are people that don't like whistleblowers. My parents brought up the fact that maybe I could end up pulled over, arrested, and even have my life messed with. I didn't know.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Ok, so the girl who made the video about Teal being creepy. Did she have attacks like that?

CAMERON CLARK
She had death threats apparently. The woman who made the Teal Scott Creeps Me Out video emailed me something about a Gray alien government involvement project she thinks Teal is a part of. It scared the crap out of me.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Do you have any proof that you will be physically threatened for exposing her? The police should arrest Teal swan. Surely she is being investigated by the FBI. What proof do you have that she is with grey alien government? We have gotten many death threats to by the way. Most of them are empty and messed up. If you have evidence on Teal, it’s your duty to expose her.
 I do not feel you will be in harm, but we can give you a fake name if you like, just in case.

CAMERON CLARK
 I don't have proof that I could be in any imminent danger, besides what the woman said about death threats to her.  She told me she was approached by another woman who worked for the government labs, and  apparently looked and talked just like Teal, but she was black? She apparently befriended her, showed her security clearance, and showed her something about UFO projects, and gray alien contact. She also claimed the black woman made a pass at her. It was so weird. I didn't know what to think.
 So no, I don't have proof.

JESSICA SCHAB
 You can contact the FBI if you’re scared. She is most likely already under investigation.

CAMERON CLARK
 It all sounds so weird, I don't want to focus too much on it. I think I've made my decision. I might be scared, but I've been scared before. It's better than being scared and not doing anything about it.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I’m sorry, I did not mean to pressure you. I will assist you in whatever way I can.

CAMERON CLARK
 You aren't. I understand where you are coming from. I just didn't know if you understood where I was coming from, so I wanted to share a little of where I was prior to now. You aren't pressuring me. That isn’t it. I think it is helping me more than anything. I realize how fears can get built up in my head without solid proof. Just little pieces that seem to fit together, but they can't be verified. It hardly seems reasonable to cling to fear and not do anything.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Well, we do work with psychological fears, and most of them are not real. We just make them real with all the ideas we accumulate. Eventually,  we can no longer tell what is what anymore. You have to understand how fear works, then you and everyone else will never fall into these traps again. You will be able to see them a mile away.

CAMERON CLARK
 Nice. So, I am willing to do what I can do to collaborate here.
 I wouldn't be opposed to Skype at some point if that is the route you want to go. I don't know how long you have, but I am still writing out where I was in terms of head space leading up to and during this situation. I’m spending a little time each day working on it. It sounds like you are pretty eager to get this off the ground. I don't know if you want me to just send you bits and pieces or the full story, and you can dissect it from there?

JESSICA SCHAB
 Its up to you. I have time as much as you need.

 CAMERON CLARK
 Okay great! Thank you, I will do that. It shouldn't take too much longer.

JESSICA SCHAB
 It seems to me Teal was a struggling ammature model, and realized she could not do it her whole life. So, she decided to make up stories to be the center of attention. Then she found someone to market her, so she could be made into a cash cow. By playing the  “I am more spiritual and conscious than you” game, when anyone crosses her path, she can always just say they are from the evil cult. Then her Tealer warriors will turn on them.  She claims she will make so much money, she will be able to buy countries. I’m sorry. She is not psychic at all. Everything she spouts, she has either made up or read.

CAMERON CLARK
 I am not sure why she has soo many psychological disorders though. Being around Teal was like being in a never-ending drama-trauma cycle. She is nothing, if not capricious. Her emotions were always rapidly shifting. For instance: one minute she was giddy, doing cartwheels in the park; then, 15 minutes later, on the drive home, she became despondent, after claiming to have seen, on the side of the road, the ghost of a person who was ‘traumatically’ killed in a car accident. She acted depressed, claiming to have gone out of body, to help the ghost cross over. She is a really good actress if she is faking everything. Even the fact that she is faking it points to a whole other set of psychological imbalances. I did witness a “seizure,” and she is clearly disturbed sexually. There is something going on that I don't understand the cause of. I don't believe her back story she tells the public. I believe that Blake (her marketer/business partner) and Teal made a pact to take the "spiritual route" to fame and fortune after she had her son years ago. This idea only came about because her athletic career fizzled out, and the nude modeling/prostitution world wasn't such a viable option for a married mommy. Teal and Blake are both pathological liars. As far as I am concerned, they are both deluded and dangerous con-artists, and I am relieved to have have gotten away from them when I did.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I think she was raped when she was a kid, but that was the extent of her abuse. She developed the complex mainly, because she wanted attention.

CAMERON CLARK
 Blake has bought into her delusional world and been in love with her for the past eleven years. While I was at their house, it came to light that Teal and Blake had been messing around behind Teal's ex-husband Mark's back the entire last year of their marriage. Blake has not been in a relationship since his ended with Teal almost 10 years ago. Not to mention, Blake has been living off of Teal and Mark's income for the past 5 years, and therefore has a vested interest in successfully pimping Teal out (spiritually or otherwise.) Blake has been fired from more jobs that he can count, and has had no social or family life outside of Teal. Blake has no car, no house, and no real means of income on his own. He was waiting tables at a bistro a couple nights a week.  However, with the cost of living being so high, that could barely pay for food and toilet paper in Park City.  Blake's day job consists of making Teal's weekly videos, planning her workshops, running Teal Eye LLC (such as it is.) , and caring for Teal's 4 year old son Winter. Blake has been there from the beginning, and has been Winnie's "second dad" according to Blake and Teal. Blake has said he couldn't love that boy any more if he were his own. In my opinion, two dads is necessary, because Teal is not a hands on parent. After caring for and bonding with that little guy myself, I was seriously concerned for Winnie's emotional and physical well being while I was there.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Seizures can be any number of things

CAMERON CLARK
 Ok. I am relieved you don't think she is psychic. But why did she sometimes pick up on stuff that happened in childhood? And I was actually told by two shaman and a psychic that she is consciously cording people, which is a big violation in the spiritual community.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Its easy to fake it. Or mostly, what they do is the people tell them stuff about their life, and they do not remember, and then all she does is repeat it, and they are like, “Wow. How did you know?. You must be real deal.” Did you think about anonymously calling social services on Teal, as her son is clearly being neglected and there is child manipulation due to being born into a cult? I really hope someone takes her to court to expose her dangers as well. It’s sickening

 CAMERON CLARK
 I would never call social services. That is an even scarier place for children to end up. I am sorry, but I have even less faith in government agencies than I do in Teal.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Well true. I’m not sure how it works in the US, but in Canada, there are options for the child to go to the grandparents if need be, not to some random sicko who wants money. Yes, the government is messed up everywhere, but it still can work sometimes with exposing stuff like this.

CAMERON CLARK
 There are seriously satanic pedophile rings in social services in the states. I at least know Winnie wasn't going to go through that with Blake and his father Mark and Teal's parents in the picture.

JESSICA SCHAB
 But I’m not saying for you to do any of this. Just pointing out how many options there are. Yes I know. I have heard about the satanic pedophile rings, but it’s not all of them. There are lots, yes, but there are still some that are legit. You do not know which one the kids will get though.
 So how is Winnie? What is he like? What’s his psychology like? It seems like you were his babysitter or something.
 I think this new age conspiracy stuff has made you nervous thinking everything is satanists and pedophiles when it's not true. This is something that people need to understand and find out for themselves when detoxing from all this stuff.
 I’m not saying it’s not there, because it is. But I’m saying it’s not what you think or as bad as you have been made to believe. This is also why so many give Teal so much merit, but it’s not true.

CAMERON CLARK
 Winnie was incredible. He seemed very fragile though. Teal said he was a crystal child and a Pleiadian walk-in/ascended master. Ugh. I know. He was very sensitive to people's energies. He seemed to say some very wise things. He was such a sweet kid. He is going to be emotionally scarred though. He talked really loud and had fits pretty often while I was there, because I don't think he ever felt truly recognized or heard with a house full of strangers always coming and going. When he would fall and hurt himself, He would usually cry out, “I need a mommy". When he got hurt, was usually when he got full one on one attention from Teal. He did end up getting hurt a lot while I was there. A lot of that is normal 3-4 year old boy stuff. Although,  he fell down the stairs once with Jared and even broke his little arm. :( He seemed to think he had come to help his mommy get better. Once when Teal had just been “triggered” by something upstairs, he came all the way downstairs just to get me. He said, “mommy's sad.” There was a house full of other people, including Fallon, but he insisted on coming to get me. I asked him what he thought I needed to do about it. He just grabbed my hand and said, "go check on her." So I did. It was horrible. He lives in that situation on a daily basis. Thank god he has Teal's parents. They are such supportive grandparents for Winnie. He seriously latched on and became quite attached to me right away. He called me his girl. He asked me to read him stories every chance he got. And one day, when I took him and their Great Dane to a nature preserve behind Teal's house, I remember it was so sad he squeezed me around the neck so tight and said, "I just wanna stay like this forever."
 He even got really upset one day when he thought I was leaving. He started crying, and told me he really wanted me to stay. Mind you this was still only a couple weeks into things, and I wasn't actually leaving at that time, but Fallon told me that Teal had said he sensed that things were really uncertain, and he was afraid I was leaving.
 The poor kid still wasn't even potty trained at four years old. He was still in diapers, because I just don't think there was enough consistency to make it stick. Teal refused to do anything about the potty training situation. She claimed that potty training can cause some of the most trauma to children, and is actually the cause of  a whole host of issues later in life. Teal’s parents tried working with him, but when he was home, nobody had really followed through. So, Winnie had learned to just bring you a diaper when he needed changed. I thought that was odd.

JESSICA SCHAB
 It is. Kids get potty trained by age 2.
 Why does Teal attack and write smack about her parents so much to the point they want nothing to do with Teal?
 Do her parents know the true situation of how it is for Winter to live in that house? Is there a way to have them take the boy rather then Teal? Did you tell her parents about what is actually going down there at the Teal house?

CAMERON CLARK
 Teal and her parents seemed to have a functional, supportive, relationship when I met them. She seemed far from angry and estranged from them before her infamous blog post. In fact, I had the pleasure of spending a weekend with Teal's parents and her brother Sky with Teal at her parents' house in the Escalante desert. I honestly loved them. I thought they were some of the warmest, most present, and accommodating people I had ever come across. I would describe them as intelligent salt of the earth people. That was actually the only time I even began to question the plausibility of Teal's abuse. I couldn't believe these people wouldn't have noticed something as extreme as what Teal described going on with their daughter. I even commented that I loved her family, and it seemed as though Teal had an idyllic childhood if it weren't for the abuse. Teal agreed. I can remember Teal's level headed brother Sky cracking a joke when Blake, him, and I broke out on a hike.  Blake explained that Winnie apparently told him a tall tale earlier in the day, and Sky laughed it off saying. "Uh oh, it looks like Winnie may have inherited his mom's imagination and penchant for exaggeration." That one stuck with me.
 It seemed as though her parents put a lot into Teal growing up.  What with her trip to China, her modeling, skiing, skating, and epic nature loving camping trips. Her parents just seemed to be such a doting supportive unit for Winnie too. Any which way I tried to look at it, left me puzzled and scratching my head. I just couldn't make Teal's story add up. I still can't. My heart broke for her parents and brother when I read Teal's blog post on the Oedipal complex. I don't think the worst parents in the world would have deserved the crap she wrote about them. I know her parents didn't deserve it. I don't believe for a second that they didn't do the best they could by Teal. She needlessly dragged them through the mud in my book. That is true to form for Teal though.

JESSICA SCHAB
 How do we know none of the many people coming into the Teal house are not molesting this boy secretly like what usually happens? Children are just decoration and trophies to her.

CAMERON CLARK
 I don't know anything. That breaks my heart to even think that! I know she thinks of Winnie like an accessory, and only wants to be a parent when it is convenient. Some of the things she said about him were awful.I haven't been in contact with Teal's parents since that weekend. My guess is they feel so guilty about the monster they raised, but they also love her because she is their daughter and  feel some strange need to protect her. Why else would they stay so silent in the face of all this?

JESSICA SCHAB
 My gosh, this is such a twisted tale to unravel. But you see, the brother sees she is just imagining and exaggerating everything all for attention. Her parents could not give enough or be good enough, just like every guy, or person in Teal’s life. No one is good enough, because her standards are impossible, and she is schizo. So, when they do not meet her standards, after a while, she rakes them across the coals.

CAMERON CLARK
 You’re right.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Did you ever ask them? Would they protect her if they knew the truth? Say the evidence? What did  they have to say about Winter not being potty trained at 4 yet? Maybe even her brother will help you. Something has to be done. You at least know them, and they know you. So if you came to them with all this, what do you think they would say and do? Do you think they would tell you to leave, or see that something must be done? I cannot find that blog. I think she took it down. I only know of another blog where she mentioned it, so I do not know what she said about them. l think Teal was very jealous of you too, and furious that you intruded in her control plans for Fallon. So, she did what she could to make it hell for you in the house until you left. Only room for one queen bee in that house.

CAMERON CLARK
 Her parents didn't seem to like the potty training situation at all. They said they were trying to work with him on it when they had him, but Teal dismissed them. They just tip-toed around it when I was at Teal’s parents for her birthday once. It may have been awkward for them to address serious issues when there was always company around. I don't know anything for sure. He is surely potty trained by now anyway, He’s five.  Her parents know exactly what it is like with Teal. They took Winnie every chance they got. They moved to be closer to him.  They took him every weekend for 3 days and whenever Teal went to her workshops when I was there. They knew exactly what it is like in that house, and they never did anything. Her mom thought the relationship with Fallon wouldn't last. She was right.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Teal is also terribly spoiled. She had everything, and it was not enough. No, she needs countries. So they know she talks about sex all the time and manipulates everyone?

CAMERON CLARK
 Yes!

JESSICA SCHAB
 What about her brother? Do you think he would talk with you about all this? And they do nothing? How can they be ok with Winter being raised around that?

CAMERON CLARK
 It's like they don't want to lose Teal completely from their lives, so they roll with the punches she dishes out, and all of them just carry on.They all walk on eggshells like it's normal I suppose.

JESSICA SCHAB
 One thing that is strange to me. When a child tells their parents they are raped,  the parents often refuse to acknowledge it and do nothing, or they accuse the kid of being a liar. I do not understand why this is. So maybe if she was raped, and she tried to tell them, and they did nothing, then that could be a good reason to resent them and destroy them in her blogs.
 What is her brother like? Well, her parents lost her a long time ago.They have to help put a stop to this monster they created. By allowing it, they are a party to it.

CAMERON CLARK
 Yes. Teal claims that her abuser threatened to kill her family if she told anyone what happened to her. Teal told me a story once (doesn’t mean it was true)  that she went to the doctor for an infection when she was 9, and the Dr. told her mother her hymen was broken. Teal said her mother dismissed it as being from horseback riding, and never gave it another thought.
 Teal hates her parents for never protecting her by my estimation, and they feel so guilty they are willing to put up with anything to try to make it right in their minds.
 I only spent time around Teal’s brother twice. He tried to intervene when she was going through a divorce and beginning to date Fallon. Her brother seems to stay on the fray most of the time.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Teal’s parents need to know they can never make it up to her, and to continue playing her game they are a party to much worse.

CAMERON CLARK
 Her brother stays out of the way most of the time. He didn't say much, but he seemed to have his head on straight.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Why? Does he feel guilty too? Does she blame him too?

CAMERON CLARK
 Teal said that her brother wanted to do something about Teal's abuser when the family found out about what had happened from Teal. But Teal said their dad talked him out of it, so maybe he feels guilty?? Who knows if she was telling the truth there either. Teal also claimed that all those years, she never told anyone about what was happening, because her abuser had threatened his life. So, I don't know what kind of twisted psychological hold she has on her brother.
 Last I heard, her brother was a rape counselor. I think he must know Teal was raped, but he probably doesn't know what to make of the rest of her story.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Do you think he would listen to you if you talked with him?

CAMERON CLARK
 I don't know. What would I talk to him about? He knows Teal. There is nothing I know that he doesn't. At least from what I could tell, he's heard and seen it all.

JESSICA SCHAB
 About what to do. What do you do, continue to allow it, because it’s Teal after all, and she gets away with everything all because of guilt? I’m sorry, no. Her brother was a rape counselor. What about all the people Teal is psychologically raping?
 She also claims to be Shirdi Sai Baba in a past life.
 I’m sorry. I may be sounding pushy again. I’m just trying to brainstorm on what can be done, and why this needs to be exposed, and why you can not do it on your own. You need help from solid people who know her and her bs well.

CAMERON CLARK
 I kept my sanity by believing that Winnie knew exactly what he was getting into, and that he was being protected. Now I am having to grapple with how this is a damaging belief, and I don't know what the best course of action is. I believed he was protected at the soul level that is.

JESSICA SCHAB
 No Cameron, people do not choose this. No souls choose this. It’s a very dangerous new age tool used to get away with so much BS. As you can see, he is not being protected. Not at all.
 I will show you some more very damaging beliefs that I saw you wrote above. I have to scroll up to find them.

CAMERON CLARK
 Why won't her own family do more?  GREAT FRIGGIN JESSICA SCHAB.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Come on, no soul is ever protected by this BS. Not Teal, even though she claims to be advanced. What about all those kids being beheaded? They did not choose that, and nor is any soul or god protecting them. It’s just an invention to be irresponsible and cruel to one another.
 Only you can find that out.

CAMERON CLARK
 Hmmm. This is a good point. It's been almost a year since I've spoken to them. I wonder how much has changed since then.
 Teal did claim that I reminded her of her mother. That is so scary, because she clearly hated her mother. I guess maybe that explained her sadistic need to punish and compete with me on some level. But then she was also incredibly manipulative, and made it seem like she didn’t really want me to actually leave on bad terms. I just thought it was her borderline personality disorder. Classic "I hate you, don't leave me" crap. Her parents are clearly used to these abusive, devaluing cycles of Teal's over the years. Really weird shit I'm putting together over here. Thanks again.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Of course. That’s her way to stay safe and squeaky clean. She played these mind games to make you seem like the insane one who can not stand it there. All the while being like, oh no, I love you, we are soul family, or whatever bs. That’s so when you do leave, it’s your fault and not Teal’s. She’ll say you cannot handle her vibration or some shit like that. Think back to the many who left in haste. What did she say about them when they were gone?  Most likely, I knew their vibration was no good, or they were jealous, or something like that.

CAMERON CLARK
 SO TRUE! How did you figure all this out?! Do you know Teal too? Teal is one of the biggest shit-talkers behind people’s backs I have ever come across. I quickly learned that she rarely had anything nice to say about anyone when they weren’t in front of her. She either says she loves people when they aren’t in front of her, or they are complete and total shit to her based on her last interaction. There isn’t anything in between with Teal. I couldn’t believe the things she said about her own fans and the people who were hosting her workshop when I first met her and was driving her and Blake to dinner after her Santa Barbara workshop. That was a huge disillusionment for me on day one. I didn’t think a spiritual teacher would be so two-faced and speak so negatively about her own fans and people who were interested in helping her that way.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I do not know Teal personally, but I know her psychology. I know her game, and I know how she works. We make tons of labels to hide and excuse our mess and confusion.
 It’s not her borderline personality disorder. It’s her manipulation control game. It’s her spell she casts. Yes, it’s just like an abusive relationship: “I hate you, don’t leave me”; “Let me abuse you some more.” Next it’s, “I’m sorry,”....”I will never do it again,” here is a gift, or letter to show you I care. Then it’s back to more abuse. This fucks with a person’s mind so bad, that it makes people put up with and stay in abusive relationships for years, even bringing kids into the mix. It’s messed up, and it must be exposed, detoxed, and dissolved, or this shit will go on forever to all our children.  What will we tell them?  You chose this. No, we chose to do this with our kids by refusing to think, or see the pattern for what it is. Why? Because it’s not positive. It’s too negative and ugly. Push it away. Oh, but we cannot hide from it. It always find us.

CAMERON CLARK
 Ah. So, the Western medical community throws the label BPD to diagnose a manipulative cycle of abusive behavior that is passed down from parents to children.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Yeah we are like detectives. I just said the same to my husband. It is really weird shit we are putting together with our chat.
 You know, I am pretty sure she watched and copied lots of my videos, and even the blog idea where you write so much about your personal life. For example, I know she ripped off being a dream guide from me. Not that I care, I’m just telling you.
 I can even tell you how it works, and how easy it is to do it. I never purposely manipulated people though.  I did not know how damaging my spiritual beliefs were. Once I realized the damage I was promoting, I knew I had to expose it. The spiritual teachers who know, and refuse to expose it, and  just continue riding the gravy train, piss me off. They have a responsibility, damn it. If they really want to help, this is how.

CAMERON CLARK
 Dream guide? Is that where she is claiming to help people cross over in their dreams? I’ve tried to avoid all things Teal related since I left. I admit I have been hesitant to read her blogs or watch her material. It is difficult to stomach. I have mostly been kept up to date by disillusioned Tealers that have been kicked out of Teal Tribe or blocked for asking questions. They then often vent about Teal’s crap teachings in other blogs or private groups on Facebook.
Yes, you are right, Teal is definitely a disinformation agent. She is doing a disservice to society. Teal has thousands of  desperate, lost, and confused followers that enforce  her delusions of helping people by giving her daily online consensus. Unfortunately, Teal is only spreading the confusion within her own diseased mind to the masses by normalizing and even exalting her own toxic behavior that she refuses to change. She would rather justify and excuse her narcissism, selfish worldview, and toxic relationship patterns in her videos disguised as  “teachings” than change any of her own unhealthy psychology. Ever the martyr, she claims she is using her own miserable life as proof that she knows the way out of suffering, and she knows how to transcend all the ills in the world. Teal is doing this all under the guise of helping people, whilst being nothing more than the equivalent of a spiritual drug dealer. She’s dispensing her damaging beliefs that temporarily make people feel better about the dysfunction in their lives. Teal is making a profit by exploiting the confusion and delusions present within herself and her followers. Teal isn’t helping anyone in the long run, least of all herself. Meanwhile, her followers swallow her deluded belief systems whole, without ever having to actually think for themselves, or effect any real positive change in the world. All because they suddenly feel better about what is; all because Teal claims that everything is perfect from source perspective anyway.
  When Teal attempts to speak from this elusive "source perspective" that only she seems to have access to, source’s messages end up sounding like: “Go ahead and commit suicide,”... “It feels so good to die,”… “Just shoot girls who don’t want to sleep with you, Elliot Rodger (The Virgin Killer); your purpose was to show the world what bad parenting can do,”…. “Thanks for leading that revolutionary suicide movement, Jim Jones”… “Hail Hitler--- the biggest catalyst for world peace,”…”Source doesn’t judge you,”... “Suffering is perfect; it causes the most expansion in the universe,”….” After all, the purpose of our lives is to find joy and expand,”... “There are no mistakes,”... “Just  ask Teal.”
Frankly, these sound like the ramblings of a schizophrenic psychopath. It’s no wonder many people believe Teal may be working for the Illuminati agenda. It seems to me, this is exactly the kind of BS that the powers that be would want people to be thinking right now. These new age beliefs pacify the masses, just like religion has done for centuries. Meanwhile, atrocities are committed right under our noses; the world still turns; people never change, and the dysfunctional world systems stay in place.
 Having been in Teal's cross hairs for months, I know from experience that trusting her is a dangerous proposition. In my experience, abuse of trust is an understatement when it comes to Teal's M.O. Teal claims to be "treating clients" who come to her for psychic advice, mental, emotional, and physical "healing," but she is completely deluded herself. I don't believe Teal has any business treating or advising anyone, but I do believe she would benefit immensely from psychological treatment herself. Unfortunately, it seems like she bounces from psychiatrist to psychiatrist without ever following through consistently with any of them. It's almost like she goes to see them merely to steal and plagiarize new material/processes for "her teachings." It almost seems as though she likes to channel different aspects of their personalities in a way. Maybe seeing so many therapists growing up is partially how she developed her persona as a spiritual teacher or something. I found Teal’s claims that she suffers from Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) extremely unlikely to say the least. Teal has publicly stated that she had twelve alternate personalities (alters) that she managed to miraculously integrate in therapy over the course of five years. It’s difficult to sort out what's true and what's not with a pathological liar like Teal, but I believe this to be a bold faced lie. She hasn't successfully integrated anything or completed treatment.
 Incidentally, one of her alleged alters is a priestess of Satan and was used by cult members in satanic rituals to call forth and communicate with the "thought form known as the Devil."  She also claims to have one alter who is a Wiccan high priestess and was used in officiating ceremonies and as a midwife delivering babies. I was informed by a former friend of Teal’s, who wishes to be unnamed, that Teal has a past history of drug addiction. Teal publicly claims she became addicted to drugs due to her abuser injecting her with ketamine and other mind/body altering drugs during her childhood years. But I digress. Teal explained that for a time, she was getting money from the state for psychological treatment, and she finally found a psychiatrist in Utah, who specialized in ritual abuse, by the name of Barbara Snow. I've looked her up on google. Apparently, Barbara Snow has been involved in some legal issues, but appears to still have a practice. Teal also claims to have gone to group therapy with other ritual abuse victims. (perhaps this is where she picked up and internalized some of the more horrific stories of abuse she heard from other victims in group).
 Anyways, Teal claims that she developed a great rapport with this Barbara Snow woman. It sounded like she idolized her. I remember Teal singing her praises, saying she made her feel so safe, how she was "soft and sweet like a marshmallow," and that she recognized immediately and knew exactly what she was dealing with in her treatment of Teal's ritualistic programming. She claims to have seen her regularly for 5 years, but then her treatment ended abruptly after Barbara made a "HUGE MISTAKE" according to Teal. Teal claims that one day, after a session, Barbara broached the subject of a back payment from Teal, because she hadn't been paid for several sessions. Apparently, Teal's state funded payments had run out, unbeknownst to Teal. This had embarrassed and infuriated Teal soo much, that Teal said she could never bring herself to go back. This type of splitting behavior makes borderlines one of the worst types of patients for therapists to try and treat. All I know is, it's awfully strange that as soon as Teal leaves treatment, she suddenly writes a book, invents a career as a spiritual catalyst, and qualifies herself to help clients with emotional, spiritual, and mental problems. At the very least, I know Teal should never be allowed to play out her egomaniacal mind games on any unsuspecting person who exhibits signs of depression.
 It caught me off guard the first time I experienced one of Teal's borderline tirades, where she flipped a switch and began berating me for all of my shortcomings a few weeks after I arrived in Utah. It started when she became extremely irritated with me and accused me of questioning her integrity. This was after Teal told me her cat, Cosmos, was actually a holographic soul projection from the planet Sirius, and he had been sending me telepathic images of my pancreas, to tell me that my blood sugar was off. I casually mentioned  that I had just happened to read about blood sugar and it's effect on the body in the book called The Woman Code, that she had coincidentally recommended I read just two days before. Despite my offhand manner, she claimed that I was "attacking her"  and pled her case to Fallon, Graciela, and Flavia. I was dismayed by her reaction, but she claimed to have read my energy, and accused me of energetically "throwing a dagger" and not trusting her. Then, in front of those guys, Teal immediately jumped to trying to convince me that I was suicidal (despite the fact that I wasn't and had never been suicidal before). I explained this, to her, and she went so far as to tell me that I was "passively suicidal" instead, and  informed me that I was "uncommitted to life." She asked why I had never considered suicide before. I told her that despite the fact that she may believe that life is just an insignificant video game from "source perspective," I happened to believe that suicide would hurt my family, and I would never consider doing anything that selfish. Teal responded flippantly saying, "Hm, It's about time you were selfish, isn't it?"
 Teal compared me to her most difficult client Leslie that she lost to suicide, and even went so far as to say that I looked like her. She went on to tell me among other things, that she could see my thoughts and my vibrations and that I was a match to breast cancer, and that I had stomach ulcers. This was news to me, as I had never had any symptoms. I am not someone who has ever easily let people hurt me, but by the end of her tirade, Teal finally had me in tears. Only Flavia, who was extremely taken with Teal at the time, expressed that she thought Teal was being really hard on me after Teal and Fallon had left the room. This didn't go over well, and the rest of the group remained silent. Teal told me to get in my car and drive to decide whether I was committed to life or not. Thank god by that time, I had the wherewithal to recognize that Teal was clinically insane, so I got in my car and drove to my apartment with the intention of packing up my things and moving back home to Washington. According to Fallon, Teal then became frantic and was in tears after I actually left and she had him call and text me asking if I was okay. I couldn't believe she had the audacity to believe that I would actually kill myself because she told me to.
 In hindsight, I do believe that someone who trusted Teal, was already depressed or suicidal,  and was unaware of Teal's own mental instability may have fallen for her line of BS and decided to kill themselves. I would be shocked if Teal's client Leslie who killed herself  knew of all of  Teal's various mental problems at the time she was being "treated," and  I doubt Leslie's husband who repeatedly called to yell at Teal after he found his wife dead, knew Teal was mentally ill at that time either. By all accounts, Leslie's husband was furious with Teal for the first week following his wife’s death, and I do believe he would have been able to take legal action against Teal if he had access to information concerning the state of Teal’s mental health at that time. However, it didn’t take long before Teal worked her charms on him to win him over, and his attitude mysteriously changed toward Teal after several weeks of what no doubt Teal would call “grief counseling.” He is purportedly a big supporter of Teal now. I even remember Teal scrambling to have us all get her house in order, because he was coming over for one of his regular sessions with Teal. l was even briefly  introduced to him in passing as he was leaving Teal’s house after he had just emerged from Teal’s healing room where she sees her “clients.” What often goes on in these healing sessions with male clients I later learned from Teal was a tale in itself.
 Teal did not publicly disclose  her mental issues until recently, and in fact, I had to recognize and point out Teal's mental problems myself after I moved to Utah before she would admit to them. I'm convinced she never would have admitted to mental instability at all if it hadn't become impossible for her to conceal her issues from me and the other members of Shadow House who were living in close quarters with her for several months. I am ashamed and embarrassed that I ever went back over to Teal's house after that first little episode, but it's amazing what GUILT wielded by a sociopath like Teal, and group pressure can do to a person.  I admittedly was a glutton for punishment for allowing myself to ever be an emotional punching bag for Teal. Teal has a knack for preying on people's insecurities and making critical comments that slowly chip away at their self worth. On the outside,  I pretended that her critical comments toward me didn't bother me, and I found myself genuinely trying to understand her point of view.  Internally, I experienced Teal to be very cutting, hurtful, and mean. She had a very effective method for disempowering me and making me doubt myself on the few occasions that I finally had the audacity to stand up for myself. Teal played the victim card without fail. You see, in Teal's world, Teal's pain is the only pain that ever matters. Teal is never responsible for any pain she ever inflicts, because it is excused as being the product of her childhood abuse. Teal is the only victim, while everyone else is a match to abuse because of the law of attraction coupled with their mommy and daddy issues. When I did finally attempt to stand up for myself, Teal claimed that I was  "attacking"  and thus "triggering" her. She then would rally her other sycophants to defend her and excuse her inexcusable behavior.
 Everyone in the house convinced me that I was a match to Teal's abusive treatment because of my vibrations stemming from my childhood beliefs of being unwanted. According to Teal, this was apparently a vibration I had entrained to in-utero by virtue of being born to a 16 year old single teenage mother. So you see, Teal's emotional attacks were actually doing me a favor by mirroring my beliefs back to me so that I could finally recognize and change them. Or at least that is what she had convinced me to believe. Any issue I had with Teal's treatment toward me was  immediately reduced to me having some sort of a personality disorder (diagnosed à la Teal), some fractured inner child, or a "mommy issue."  Her abusive treatment toward me was always done under the guise of “helping me,” because of course, she knew best.  She claimed that I didn’t realize how much I actually needed her help. She claimed that only she knew how messed up I really was, because she can see vibrations and thoughts and had access to memories that I didn’t.  I believe she was targeting me in this way, because I didn’t respond to her as if she was a savior or a master like everyone else in the group did. She needed to convince me that I needed her. I never once wanted or asked for any “help” that according to Teal she had been giving me from day one.
 It’s amazing though, how after letting Teal project her own toxic pathology onto me, in a few months time, I actually went from thinking I was an empowered spiritual seeker there to help volunteer for Teal Eye LLC’s mission for positive world change, to believing that I might actually need Teal's spiritual advice and healing. She had me doubting my sanity and wondering whether I was damaged beyond repair. She tried to convince me that I had repressed traumatic memories involving alien abductions that were affecting me, and then tried diagnosing me with a personality disorder that Teal herself had. I found myself buying into the excuses other people were making for her. I convinced myself that she didn't really mean to be hurtful, she's just in so much pain herself, right? After everything Teal has been through, how dare I add to her pain by defending myself. RIGHT? This was an extremely abusive cycle to be a party to.
 The intentional community Teal was always going on about in her blogs and on Shadow House was a cult. PERIOD. Unfortunately, I was completely ignorant to cults at that time, or to the fact that Teal had been running cult programming on us from the beginning. Teal did not allow free thinking, questioning. or dissent of any sort when it came to her own little land of make-believe. The truth is, that there was never any time spent alone in Utah by myself to really examine or question things for the first couple of months I was there. It was a whirlwind. When we weren't working as volunteers, we were doing group activities like outdoor hikes,  or we were sitting around her kitchen table being indoctrinated and listening to outlandishly crazy stories that always seemed to be centered around Teal's powers or "poor Teal" and her horrendous stories of abuse. I came to see these stories as explanations and excuses for why she couldn't do so many things on her own (including laundry, or being a parent) and how she needed to be taken care of herself. Teal, Blake, and Fallon had us busy cleaning her house, watching her son, grocery shopping, cooking, weeding her yard, feeding and walking her dogs, reading her emails, moderating her comments, and driving her and Fallon around for appointments and errands. On Fallon’s recommend, Flavia, Graciela, Justin, and I lived for about a month all together in one small room with Justin and I sharing a bed in Teal's basement. In true borderline fashion, Teal's intensely devaluing tirades did come about with a certain regularity. After a particularly nasty episode of Shadow House, where I was the primary target for Teal's ire, she cursed everyone out and kicked us out of the house on one of her tirades. We decided to all move in together in the apartment I still had been renting down the road just in case things went south. I wasn't particularly happy about all of us being crammed together once again, or being held responsible for other people who weren’t on the lease. But at that time, nobody else besides Flavia and myself had incomes and were in a qualified position to sign a lease. So, I initially took pity on the rag tag band of misfits who found their way to Utah at the same time I had.
 On the off chance we had a day of free time, Teal forbade socializing with anyone she saw unfit outside of the group. Namely, there was a girl that Teal had a falling out with, and looking back on it, she had been subtly trying to warn us all about Teal. Teal also tried to convince all of us to hate our parents. It didn't work on me, although she did push me hard. She claimed that if we didn't get angry at our parents mistakes and instead moved straight to understanding and compassion that were glossing over the steps of the healing process and shortcutting our personal growth. She even tried to tell me that in my eyes, Teal reminded me of my mother and that's why we were at odds. I didn't buy it. I knew the real reason we were at odds was because she viewed me as a relatively strong minded potential trouble source for losing control over her other devotees/volunteers who were living with me. I know what she did to Fallon by convincing him that he had repressed memories of his step dad and grandfather raping him in the Mormon church.
 Blake's story was particularly sad, as he seemed to have no real family ties. Apparently, his mother is just like Teal according to Blake. Only he claims she is the "antithesis to Teal"? I was confused by  his use of the word there. Blake described his mother as an extremely critical, selfish, success driven, former cheerleader, and " social climber" who worked on her career while he was growing up. He described his dad as a former surfer turned stay at home dad who had sacrificed a career to raise Blake and his brother. Blake claimed his parents had a loveless marriage, and he never understood why they had stayed married for 14 years.  Now his dad lives in various shelters. Blake's only brother died in an accident 11 or so years ago, and Blake quit speaking to his mother six years ago after she once asked Teal why she wasn't in an institution, and she pointed out that Teal and Blake's relationship was unhealthy and codependent. Blake once even admitted to me that even the thought of losing Teal made him want to commit suicide.
Teal convinced Graciela to never go home because her mom and dad were abusive. Teal told Justin that the reason he was a vibrational match to being abducted by aliens was because of his oppressive catholic upbringing and miserable childhood where his emotionally abusive, closeted gay father and subservient mother stayed trapped in a loveless marriage. Flavia's mother came to visit from Brazil once. She was a sweet lady who did not speak English. From the looks of her, she  was horrified by Teal and the way her daughter was living in cramped quarters in Teal's dank basement. Flavia told Teal her mother was worried for her, and Teal succeeded in at least temporarily creating some distance between Flavia and her mother. Bonnie's story was almost as crazy and macabre as Teal's. Apparently, unbeknownst to her mother, Bonnie's father forced her and her siblings into child pornography and incest. Her father had raped Bonnie so much as a child that she now suffers from DID and BPD like Teal.
 On a new subject, one of Teal's little mind games revolved around convincing us all that our “higher selves” were aliens from different planetary systems. She claimed that I was a Pleiadian soul fork. She claimed that Graciela was not only an Arcturian walk-in, but she was specifically part of Teal's own Arcturian soul stream. Teal claimed Blake was her Pleiadian emissary, whose soul would be granted the opportunity to go to Arcturus when he dies. This was of course contingent upon him devoting his life to help Teal complete her “mission” in this lifetime. Fallon was a rogue Reptilian trying to convince his own kind that humans are worth saving. Justin's higher self consisted of Pleiadian twins. Flavia and Bonnie were Lyrans. Teal even went on to tell us all how we had known each other in our past lives. I shit you not, this intricate web of stories she weaved had more twists and turns than any sci-fi movie or book I've ever come across. I could never make this stuff up. Over the course of this intensive Teal indoctrination, she told us all that our purpose was to work with her and that we had found our way to her because our souls all had pre-birth contracts in this life. She claimed that our higher selves were extraterrestrials on a council like intergalactic Greenpeace, and we had come down together to help her with her "mission.” She told me that my strengths were in organization, and she said that she saw the future where I was like the "race horse Sea Biscuit" who was going to be an integral piece in developing her company. It became clear to me that Teal is clearly all about hierarchy. It never sat well with me to think that my purpose was to serve anyone. I felt like we were all equals. I even told Teal so on one occasion, as she was pouring over a magazine about the the Royal Couple in a Barnes & Noble. She begrudgingly agreed, but then quickly changed the subject.
 There is so much crap with so many different agendas pushed by Teal, that I could never encompass it all in one email.  Notably, upon our first in person meeting at her workshop in Santa Barbara, Teal told me that the familiarity between Blake and I was explained because we'd  been together in so many past lives that it was "a bit boring to the rest of us."  Blake informed me that Teal told him that his and my most recent lifetime together was in 1944. She told him that we died in Nazi Germany in a concentration camp after they separated us and took our children. If that wasn't a hook, I don't know what is. Teal even told me that the reason her son, Winnie, had latched on and become so attached to me was because he recognized that his higher self was pair-bonded to my higher self in the Pleiades. Of course it had nothing to do with the fact that in the midst of his life being turned topsy-turvy, with strange people coming in and out of his house all the time that I took the time to relate to him one on one. It surely had nothing to do with the fact that I made him feel recognized and heard. Teal told me that I had been abducted many times by Reptilian and Gray aliens, and that Fallon's higher self was responsible for my abductions, because he had ordered the Grays to monitor and take my genetic material. Teal claimed that Fallon’s eye twitching and facial tics were the result of his Reptilian soul stream not being completely “phased” with his body. The facial tics were basically like glitches in the matrix she claimed.
 I remember one evening where were sitting around her kitchen table, and Teal attempted to implant memories of me being abducted. I told her I didn't want to talk about it, so she proceeded to explain in great detail to me and the rest of the group what she knew had happened to me. I was in shock. She said that I had been raped repeatedly and experimented on, and had my genetic material stolen. She said she could see inside my body, and she knew that “scooped chunks” had been taken out of my uterus. As a result, she said I would be a prime candidate for infertility. She told me that now that I was working with her, the Arcturians had granted me “asylum” from the Gray and Reptilian abductions. This information was likely intended to make fearful of leaving. If I stopped working for her, it was of course implied that I would be fair game to be abducted again. She told me that my deceased biological father (whom I had never met) was a shapeshifting Reptilian who was enemies with Fallon's higher Reptilian self in a different dimension. She claimed that they had to be careful how much "galactic information" she told me, because my real father's Reptilian higher self had ordered implants and mind control/monitoring devices to be placed in my head. According to her, the purpose of this was to currently use me as a spy for the Reptilian hive to keep an eye on Teal’s plans for world change. Teal claimed that it was Fallon’s fault that I was also abducted by the Reptilians, because they never would have bothered me if they weren’t trying to find out what Fallon was up to. She claimed that there was an implant in my third eye that could never be removed, or else I would die. She also said I had  tags in my nose, leg, and shoulders. After all this, she sat across the table from Fallon and said, “This is the fucktard that is responsible for completely fucking up your life. Go ahead Fallon, apologize to her for ruining any chance she had at living a normal, happy, life.”
 Fallon seemed dazed and confused at first, but  to my horror, he was genuinely apologetic and played along with the charade. I now see that Teal was only using that little story as a way to drive a wedge between Fallon and myself. She claimed that Justin and Graciela were abducted by Fallon's gray aliens as well, and that's why we were all a match to each other. These tales for everyone in the house are more intricate and bizarre than I could ever tell you in an email. It was mind warping for sure. All this crap went on when the cameras were off, and then we were thrown into these incredibly abusive webisodes of Shadow House where Teal pretended to dispense new teachings ripped off of Byron Katie. Shadow House was bad enough, but nobody dared mention on camera the kind crazy exterrestrial stuff Teal was pushing on us behind the scenes. My stint spent with Teal, Blake, Fallon, and the Shadow House gang was one of the most disturbing, painful, and confusing experiences of my life. Until recently, I knew nothing of cults. What crazy stories I had heard, led me to believe that I was way too independent and sane to end up in something like that. I never in my life imagined I would find myself in a new age alien cult down in Utah, but that's certainly where I ended up.
 After Teal’s New York workshop, I finally broke away from the group to go home for my brother's wedding. My mom was able to help me realize what was going on by having me read up on and educate myself about cults on the internet. I realized that Teal fit the description of a toxic cult leader to a “T”, and the way she was using group pressure and ostracization to manipulate me became painfully obvious. Upon my return trip from my brother's wedding, I broke my lease, packed up a U-Haul and drove back home to my family. I haven't spoken to anyone in Teal's circle since.
 When I discovered Teal, I was new to spirituality. I had spent most of my life plugged into the matrix. Although I never quite felt like I fit in anywhere, I did what I thought I was supposed to do according to societal standards. I did well in school, went to college, got a "safe" corporate job with benefits. I was miserable, numb, and I had struggled with an eating disorder for over ten years. Over two years ago, I switched to veganism after getting severe headaches and watching the documentary Vegucated, which I believe kick-started my "spiritual awakening" process.  Prior to that, I was at one of the lowest points in my life. I had lost my job as a corporate manager, and after working 50-60 hours a week for five years, I had also lost touch with all my friends and acquaintances. I felt like I'd been a slave my entire life, and I hated waking up to go to work everyday.  Nevertheless, when I lost my job, I still felt like I had lost everything. During the unemployed months that followed, I finally had the time for some good old fashioned introspection. I started reflecting on the questions that I had always been too busy to really ponder before.  What is the purpose of my life? Why am I really here? I soon discovered the Illuminati, David Icke, Alex Jones, and I spent months on the internet absorbing all the information I could find about the true nature of our reality.  My whole life felt like it had been a lie. Nothing had ever felt right, and now I finally understood why. Unfortunately, at that time, I had nobody I could talk to about what I was finding out.  I had lost touch with all my friends, and my family thought I was going nuts when I tried to share what I had learned. Eventually, I was tired of feeling scared and powerless to change things.  After spending a lifetime being conditioned to look outside of myself for answers, of course I started looking online for spiritual answers that would make me feel better.
 That's eventually when I stumbled onto a Teal video. Her videos on self-worth and deserving had a profound effect on my struggle with bulimia. Just learning to stop and ask that one little question: "What would someone who loved themselves do?" This completely changed the way I began treating myself.  I saw Teal as a woman who claimed to have suffered unimaginable horrors, who had seemingly transformed herself, and was now living her dream life.  She knew what it was like to feel completely powerless, and here she was sharing this new empowering way of looking at the world. I believed that she understood that we are all one, she cared, and she wanted to help people. That all sounded great to me. She also claimed to be an extrasensory ET from  the planet Arcturus with abilities to perceive what most others cannot, but I suspended disbelief, because I genuinely wanted to improve my life. So, I read her book, listened to all her interviews and online workshops, watched all of her Ask Teal videos, and basically studied her material for about six months. I studied with the same veracity I studied in school. I basically just swallowed her ideas and concepts whole without ever questioning the mendacity and psychological ramifications of her claims. I can honestly say that compared to where I was, her material  made me feel better about my life than I ever had before, which further reinforced in my mind that she had to be telling the truth about her superhuman origins. So, I kept her on the pedestal she presented to the world at that time. I finally had answers, my life was heading in a new direction, and the LOA belief system was a step up from the powerless, victim mentality I had previously felt trapped in. I was extremely grateful and incredibly naive. I even felt as though I loved this generous, beautiful, ET soul who came here to show us mere mortals the way out of suffering.
 That's when I heard Teal in an online workshop explaining her visions  for positive world change, her plans for living an "intentional community," and for having volunteers who believed in her cause help to run and expand her business ,Teal Eye LLC. I still believed that all of life's answers were outside of me (Ask Teal), so of course I fell for Teal's idea that I needed to focus on changing the world outside of me as well. I never questioned Teal's motives during her earliest videos. I was blind to the red flags, and only saw what I wanted to see. Teal seemed so genuine, loving, and CERTAIN. I really wanted to be able to give something back in the way she was so generously giving to everyone else, so I emailed her right hand man Blake Dyer offering my services as a volunteer for her Santa Barbara workshop. I believe I ended up with Teal in Utah as a result of a classic bait and switch scenario. Up to that point, my interaction with Teal consisted of one weekend spent with her as a volunteer at her Santa Barbara workshop and one brief Skype call with her, Blake, and Fallon. The only other observable behavior of hers I had seen was from her YouTube videos. Teal was still hiding behind the facade of an unconditionally loving, enlightened spiritual guru. At that time, she appeared to me a strong, intelligent, capable, woman that seemed to have her shit together. I had no idea this was just an act. My communication with Fallon and Blake as a volunteer was more extensive online, through phone calls, and emails.
 At first, Blake seemed so honest, loving, and incredibly sweet. After meeting him in person in Santa Barbara there was an initial attraction, and he seemed genuinely interested in pursuing a relationship. I pulled back before I moved to Utah, as soon as I realized he was being deceptive and that there was way more to the story with him and Teal. I still moved down to Utah being prompted by Blake, Teal, and Fallon with the promise of a high vibrational lifestyle in a supportive new age community with like minded people who wanted to work towards positive world change. I thought Teal was a successful example of how to raise your own vibrations  in order to live the life you've always wanted. I was more than willing to work and volunteer for a good cause that I believed in. Unfortunately, I had no idea what I was actually getting into. It was way more duplicitous and way more "Jerry Springer" than I was prepared for. I didn’t expect that Teal and Blake only ever intended to use me as a live in housekeeper, chauffeur, and babysitter.  I had no idea her personal life was such a mess, and she has not even attempted to live by any of "her own teachings." I soon learned that these teachings weren't even coming from Teal.
 Despite Teal’s public claims that she gets her information from the ethers, and doesn’t need to read books, Teal had an extensive in home library of  popular self-help, metaphysical, and pop psychology books in her house. There were books like: Quantum Touch, What Color is Your Aura?, The Wisdom of the Enneagram, and Suzanne White’s Chinese Astrology, just to name a few. I couldn’t help but notice the highlighter marks and notes in the margins of these books in Teal’s handwriting where she was profiling all her family members and friends.  When Justin came to live in Teal's house with us after her Santa Fe workshop, he introduced me to Abraham Hicks on YouTube. I was fascinated!  When Blake heard this, he pulled out an entire DVD set of Abraham's videos that they just happened to have had laying around the house to let us borrow. Imagine my surprise and disappointment when I realized that this must have been where Teal was actually getting "her teachings" and her business model. I found myself feeling conflicted by the fact that I actually enjoyed Esther Hick's presentation more, and felt she consistently delivered her message with more clarity than Teal often managed. Teal certainly seemed to be a talented, fascinating and dynamic human being. But, after spending time around her, I also found her to be a dishonest, narcissistic, egomaniac. Call me judgemental, but I also found her dark, sadistic, unmoored from reality, demanding, vulgar, scary, provocative, dramatic, childish, manipulative, controlling, negatively focused, and extremely self absorbed. I soon decided that she was incapable of teaching me or anyone else how to exude the kind of energy they truly wanted in their life.

JESSICA SCHAB
 WOAH and WTF.

CAMERON CLARK
 I know. I know. I never thought I would end up in some crazy new age cult alien cult down in Utah. BUT IT HAPPENS TO PEOPLE. I don't know where to go from here, besides a whole lot more introspection to understand what it is about myself that allowed me to get into a situation like that.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Some things I would like for you to consider or be willing to have challenged that may be hard for you as they are comfort beliefs. Ideas such as god, satan, and love can be a serious and even dangerous conditioning. Good and evil is another invention of the mind. There is no good and evil in nature. This only exists in the messed up human mind. I can explain, but it’s a lot. If you are interested, I will share more. Love for example, is just an idea too. Love is also fear. I know this is shocking to think about, but it’s true. People are saying I love you and sending you love, without knowing what they are saying or doing. Parents often tell their kids, “I love you, that is why I force my ways on you.”
 Partners say, I love you, then I will abuse and control you, as I know what is good for you, and you do not.
 Other people say, “I love my country, or I love my god. That is why I fight and kill others.” Everyone is afraid when they have love, because no sooner do they have what they love, then they are afraid to lose it. Then they do lose it. Then the whole pattern starts all over again. Looking for love, getting love, afraid to lose it, and so on.This is why love is fear, and it’s one of the most misunderstood words ever. We do not even know what love is or why we are told it is so important.  Like enlightenment, could it be love is just another an idea? Could it be an invention of the mind that we cling to and strive for without ever understanding?
 So many say, what the world needs now is love. So many books, songs, and movies have been about love. So many are sending love, doing workshops and projects in the name of love, but where are we now? The world is more violent and scarier than ever before, and it’s getting worse, not better. Could it be that we are in denial when it comes to love? Are we clinging to hope that prevents us from understanding that we are not sending love or being loving at all?  Are we in reality being repressive, controlling, violent, and confusing? This might be very hard to read what I am writing here, but it is something that must be understood. It’s not that we are going to end fear, but we can understand how fear works, so as not to be a victim of it. Understanding how fear works helps us to understand why so many suffer so much.
 You have been desperate looking for help, but the more you have searched, the more suffering you got. There has been no relief. Why?
 It’s not because you are a bad person, or a stupid person, or you have bad karma, or any of that stuff people are told now a days. We have to be careful when we search, because whatever answer we find can take your mind and life. This can make us only able to think in that idea rather than outside of it. This is why if you challenge someone’s answer, or ideas, or solutions, or comfort zone of beliefs they get very nasty. But yet they say it’s love. Is it really? How can that be love? How can it be that whatever solution we find ends up being a part of the problem and making things worse? We have to be honest about this in order to understand this. Otherwise every solution no matter what it is, will become a part of the problem as well. Are you willing to understand the problem rather than desperately search or cling to any solution you have?
 I want to say so many things to you after reading what you wrote. Thank you for sharing all that you did. Also, I wonder how many of the people in what you mentioned above would be interested in hearing your story and helping to expose Teal, so as to also get her son out that terrible condition of living? At least to prevent or decrease the damage being done to her son’s mind.
 I’m very impressed.Your writing is transparent. You could make a book out of it if you wanted. If only people could recognize and admit the red flags, so as to prevent people from getting into that situation to begin with.

CAMERON CLARK
 Wow. I hadn't considered that. It would be nice to help others avoid such a situation though. Thanks again.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I only saw one Shadow House episode, and I was sickened by how she convinced Graciela that she is a healer, and her life purpose is to serve Teal, helping her with her BS mission. Ugh. If you’re in the other Shadow House episode, I will watch. Which one are you in?

CAMERON CLARK
 I insisted that they be taken down when I left. I had already been exploited enough by Teal, and I never gave consent for them to permanently post Shadow House episodes with me in them on YouTube. Besides, they didn’t leave up any of the episodes with Teal’s particularly embarrassing rants and outbursts, but  they clearly left the ones they thought Teal looked good in on YouTube. I had to email them, and finally flag them on YouTube before Blake would remove them.

JESSICA SCHAB
 At least they listened. Good job. Also in our Facebook group there are many there that have had conversations about how disturbed they are by Teal’s delusions.

 CAMERON CLARK
 Those episodes were awful. You didn't miss a thing from Shadow House besides an opportunity to watch a toxic cult leader in action.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I bet they were. I could hardly stomach the first one. I made myself watch the whole thing, but I could see right through her. I saw how she was manipulating them while the camera was rolling. Even just how she looked at them like she was better then everyone with her arms crossed. And saying, “Go check on Winter.” And then Graciela going under the table. Wtf?

CAMERON CLARK
 I’m impressed you made it through a whole episode. That is two hours of your life you'll never get back though.
 You saw the one with Graciela under the table too! UGH. Words fail me. I was horrified with that. I tried to tell Graciela that was totally crazy. I couldn't believe it ended like that. Graciela got mad at me for saying anything negative about a Teal process.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Haha, no, I will not get those hours back. They’re lost forever. Gracela is wrapped around Teal’s finger, damn it.

CAMERON CLARK
 I know. I just don't see Graciela ever getting away from Teal. She is like the female version of Blake. She is a totally codependent personality type, with no sense of self outside of her relationship to Teal. Graciela, like Blake, is also incredibly dishonest. Pathological liars are often found within a narcissist's inner circle. Graciela wanted to move into an apartment together before we moved to Utah, but I was very sketched out by her from the outset. I discovered that she had horrible credit, when she didn’t pass the application process when we first applied to lease an apartment together. I had became terrified at the prospect of signing a lease with her and potentially being saddled with her bills due to her irresponsible financial habits. So, I decided against moving into an apartment with Graciela, and moved into an apartment with a different roommate when I first arrived in Utah.

 I initially felt bad for keeping Graciela at a distance, but this decision was based on the fact that Graciela revealed to me that she had never had a real job. She also divulged that she had horrible credit scores, because she had taken out a bunch of student loans. I was appalled when I learned that instead of using that money for college tuition like it was intended, she had actually squandered her student loan money on a drum set, various musical instruments, a Macbook, and a big screen TV. Meanwhile, she had dropped out of college, and was living at her parents house. After racking up all that debt, she actually expected her parents to repay her student loans, car insurance, and phone bills, while she had refused to go out and get a job. However, she had decided to keep all her gadgets she purchased with her student loan money.

 To be frank, I was always extremely bemused and wary of Graciela’s sense of entitlement and indolence. I never wanted her to take advantage of me the way I saw her using her family. Whenever her parents would call her on the phone, Graciela would lie to them about the fact that she was working, and then she would weasel financial support out of her parents and younger brother when her portion of the rent money came due. I was sick to my stomach when I heard she actually convinced her younger half brother, who was twelve years old at the time, to send her the money he made selling ice cream. Meanwhile, her only actual “job” was being a slavishly sycophant unpaid volunteer to Teal.

  I several times bought her dinner when we went out to eat, and even got her an offer for a paid babysitting gig, because she always seemed to be struggling with money. Unfortunately. it seemed to me, that working her parents over and being Teal’s lackey was the only work Graciela ever seemed willing to try her hand at. Graciela is deceptively manipulative. She once said that her social strategy in school was to always try to make friends with the biggest bully on the playground. In the Harry Potter books and movies, the pathology of the character, Wormtail (Voldemort’s lackey), is very similar to the pathology I saw in Graciela. In my opinion, Graciela’s lies and manipulation abilities rival Teal. It makes sense that they are so close. Graciela was obsessed with Hollywood and being famous, and I can remember distinctly that her three favorite interests  were Teal, The Kardashians, and Demi Lovato. Like Teal, Graciela is also a master at manipulation and garnering sympathy. In fact, Graciela’s whole exterior is a pity ploy to disarm people as far as I can tell. This article describes Teal’s relationship dynamics extremely well: http://ljgc.wordpress.com/2009/07/29/narcissists-and-sycophants-a-marriage-made-in-hell/

JESSICA SCHAB
 Sigh. That’s awful. These people like Fallon have even said they would kill for Teal. That’s dangerous.

CAMERON CLARK
 I can remember Teal told us the name of her abuser one night. Fallon had searched him out on the internet, and said he was willing to kill him. Teal loved the idea. Her eyes lit up when he said it. SCARY stuff
 I wanted to interview Teal’s abuser or something and post it for people to hear his side of things. Then I thought that was just plain stupid and dangerous.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Hmm. Yeah.

CAMERON CLARK
 At least too dangerous to go do by myself. He is an old man now, but if he's involved in any cults. I don't want anyone following me or tying me up in basements. Lol.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Not even Teal would do a public interview, because she can not control it or be challenged. If she was, she would cry, and that’s it. Ok, in that case yes, and you can do it on Skype. I will even do it with you if you rather not do it alone.

CAMERON CLARK
 Haha that's awesome.I don't know if Teal’s alleged abuser, who she claimed would be pushing 80 now, would be tech savvy enough to figure out skype or not.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Well Skype can call phones too.

CAMERON CLARK
 Oh I didn't think of that!! He has even written a book. Teal recommended I read it so that I could understand her pathology and his better. She claimed to have edited it for him as a teenager…
JESSICA SCHAB
 Wtf! So messed up.

CAMERON CLARK
 Her alleged abuser lives in Idaho.

JESSICA SCHAB
 So back to that. It would be so wild to interview Teals old abuser, and see how much is true if anything.

CAMERON CLARK
 I thought that would seriously be key.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Imagine if he saw her videos and saw what she was saying about him.

CAMERON CLARK
 I know. He could clear the record. At the very least, he should know that he is potentially in danger from Teal sicking her crazy followers after him.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Maybe he will clear the record. If he is old, then there is not much he can do. That’s a great idea.

CAMERON CLARK
 He was supposedly a veterinarian. I was going to try calling him, but then I thought I better do it from a phone he can't have traced. I know I may sound slightly paranoid, but I still haven’t managed to separate all the lies and fiction from her story yet. I didn't see him in the obituaries, so he's not dead.

CAMERON CLARK
 Teal has already done her best to publicly discredit me during the last episode of Shadow House I was coerced into participating in.

JESSICA SCHAB
 The one that was removed?

CAMERON CLARK
 Yes.

JESSICA SCHAB
 What did she say to discredit you?

CAMERON CLARK
 During the last episode, I questioned her methods on shadow work and expressed my genuine confusion at the effectiveness of the way she was using Byron Katie's judge your neighbor process to allow her and all the other Shadow House members to gang up on me. I asked her what the point of this exercise was, as I never ended up feeling positive in any way after following her methods of doing shadow work with the other members.
 I felt like she was using it to break me down psychologically. She was only using Byron Katie’s method to try to get all the other members to gang up on me in order to make me doubt myself and convince me that I was the only one with a problem. She even goaded Fallon into calling me a "bitch" more than once. She looked over at him when he hesitated, and said, “Say it.” Teal ended up losing her temper and going off on me during the episode. It was basically a public flogging. In her very over-dramatic way, she tried to paint me as spiritually unevolved for not "getting it like everybody else."
 She said I refused to have a "meeting of minds," and that dealing with me made her feel like she was "taking crazy pills." She told me I was a lost cause, and I was going to end up alone. She once again, mentioned that I reminded her of her client, Leslie, who had committed suicide. I told her that I was not going to be on anymore of these Shadow House episodes, and I felt it was best for me to work on my own issues at my own pace. I explained that this was because her shadow work methods were clearly not effective, nor were they having a healthy effect on me. Her and Fallon then enacted a fake adoption just so Teal could feel like she had some sort of control over me, I guess. She accused me on camera of being out to destroy her. She claimed that I was going to leave Utah and attempt to destroy her career. At the time, the thought hadn't even crossed my mind. All I could think of was getting as far away from her as possible. I also thought she was completely self-absorbed for even thinking I would waste any more of my energy on her.
 I now see that she was scared of what she foresaw in the future. It wasn’t that she was predicting it, it was that she was creating it through her terrible treatment of me. She knew I would eventually snap out of it and realize how much damage she is doing. She decided she had to sic her followers onto me. She was using a preemptive strike in order to polarize her followers into labeling me  an "anti-Teal" (her term) who they must protect her against at all costs. After the onslaught of angry and abusive  Facebook messages, emails, and Livestream comments I received after leaving Teal's Shadow House, I felt like it was best to stay silent rather than give any more fuel to Teal and her "army."  I felt as though she made sure nobody would be interested in honestly listening to anything I would ever have to say. I didn’t bother defending myself. I just felt that one person railing against people she had already polarized against me was pretty futile at the time.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I would not have been able to do this last year, as I did not understand yet how messed up new age was. I was still trying defend it. My partner showed me sides of it I did not want to see, but I let myself see, because I did not want to be stuck in the bullshit. You see, I ended up in an abusive relationship. I knew he was a douche, but I thought my love and spirituality could change him. It was my mission to do so.

CAMERON CLARK
 People don’t see the ways that this is a microcosm of a larger problem. It affects everyone, and unless we all start changing, the system stays the same.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Abusers thrive on that. So many women and men  in abusive situations are reading new age saying love your abuser and your love will change them. What in reality they see this as a weakness, and a way to abuse, control, and exploit you. So many say, “Oh you chose it. “Even this group in LA. The leader killed his wife, and everyone said, “Oh, let's send him love. I guess she chose it on a soul contract.” Talk about fucked. They let him get away with murder.

JESSICA SCHAB
 So many say they will change, but they never do because they can not go deep enough. We have been conditioned to be shallow, to be followers, to only know what to think, rather than how to think.

CAMERON CLARK
 Well, this is my problem. I know what to think, but I’m not sure I know how to think yet.

JESSICA SCHAB
 My partner never fell victim to this stuff. He always could see it for what it is, even when he was living in India. India is said to be the spiritual homeland, but it's not. It’s the land of confusion according to him. The things he can tell you: like Amma, the hugging saint, is a billion dollar industry. Many reporters go there to investigate on missing money and mysteriously end up falling off the roof. 4 in a row. Namaste, love and light, eh?
 Yes it’s everyone’s problem, but everyone is too busy to realize it. They focus on everything but their intelligence. Intelligence and knowledge are not the same. Our posts are just ways to get people to think. We try so many ways. It’s so hard.

CAMERON CLARK
 Hmmm. that is awesome.
 I keep hearing people like Teal say question everything, but I never see anyone doing it. I do feel like everyone is extremely conditioned. We are all on autopilot.

JESSICA SCHAB
 We do. We always question. You will see, and we live by it, and stick to it. It’s my husband’s method, and I am like co founder. We have even worked with and talked to well known psychologists about this, as they are struggling with their profession. They have tons of clients, but what they have been taught in school is not working. Even in their own personal lives of these professionals are a mess. Everything is just a band aid addressing the symptoms and not the root. So the clients end up being more messed up than before.
 We want to bring this to universities to implement it, because it’s missing there. Those places are also conditioned with pride, identity, and so forth. We have no method or theory like most science has, so it drives them bonkers trying to understand how it can possibly work. So, we are creating a track record of before and after of a person’s confusion, and how they handle it
 Psychologists most of the time prescribe people drugs which  is terrible. Or they try to up your self esteem by trying to make you fit into normality. But they cannot see that what is thought or conditioned to be normal in society is insane. So they cling to motivation, holistic, and quick fixes that are always temporary or a placebo effect. These then act like drug uppers and downers that people get addicted to and need more. That is what Teal is, a drug that people get addicted to. Of course they will protect their drug at all costs. We are like the ones who get you clean from the drugs. No one likes those guys. lol Especially on psychological withdrawals.

CAMERON CLARK
 Hahaha. you are right. nobody likes those people when they are going through withdrawals. But such a necessary part of the process.

JESSICA SCHAB
 The people we do coaching with are not like Tealers at all, we are not their drug or belief system either. They will not pick you apart like shadow work either.
 The reality is we were not born with any beliefs. They were pushed on us, then we convince ourselves that's reality, and that’s how things are. But it’s not so. We are not about positivity, anti-negativity, or high vibration crap either. No law of attraction or power of one. We show how they are all BS.
 Byron Katie for example is super unstable. She was in a mental house when she came up with “The Work” after staring at a cockroach. Then she decided to use her business background to become a spiritual speaker.

CAMERON CLARK
 I knew she was a quack, and Teal was trying to push Byron Katie’s quackery on everyone with those damn shadow work processes like “Judge Your Neighbor” worksheets and “The Work.” Ugh.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Esther Hicks channeling Abraham

CAMERON CLARK
 She is a quack too. The law of attraction is total bullshit. It keeps people delusional and trapped in willful denial, refusing to see things as they actually are. Her teachings make you fear your own negative thoughts. It just keeps you in polarity and duality thinking.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Bashar is a hollywood writer and actor for star wars. He can channel some being in the future, but he can not speak Japanese and needs a translator when in Japan. Nor can he give any invention to prove he is from the future.

CAMERON CLARK
 I know Bashar is a total quack bag. After Teal, I'm convinced anyone claiming to be Arcturian needs to have their head checked.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Bashar also defines abundance as the ability to do what you want to do when you need to do it. Great advice. So if i'm a serial killer or Hitler, then what? They do not see how dangerous and stupid this stuff is making people.

CAMERON CLARK
 You are right! Examining stupid and dangerous beliefs, without inserting new stupid beliefs in their place like Teal does is the key. I like it a lot.
My family has just now opened up to watching things like the Thrive documentary and David Icke.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Oh no.

CAMERON CLARK
 I know, I need to stop the madness.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Thrive is terrible. David Icke, well, he has some interesting stuff, but he is out to lunch.

 CAMERON CLARK
 Hahaha. What happened to Icke?

JESSICA SCHAB
 I still admire his courage, but at the same time, how many people freaked out about reptilians? Now, after watching videos of a person, wherever there is some pixelation,  people claim they are shapeshifters. Every triangle is illuminati now to thanks to him, and people are not able to think while they listen to him speak.
 He is caught in his own conspiracies.

CAMERON CLARK
 Ahhh ok. He’s caught up in the fear. I wondered why the illuminati would even let him live, unless he was doing them a favor.

JESSICA SCHAB
 It’s true. No one called anyone a reptilian before Icke. It’s racist. Not all reptilians are blood drinking Illuminati, just a small percent. Not all sexy pleiadians, arcturians, andromedans, and whatthefuckians are good or benevolent either.
 Really none of them are good or bad, they are just confused. Some are just predators that prey off confusion, stupidity, and non-thinking. We allow it first ourselves. It starts in your mind. We give them permission first, then it gets mirrored outside into the world.
 That’s exactly why the Illuminati most likely lets him continue. He is doing a good job for them by making people think that the wizard behind the curtain is more badass then they can imagine. Word of mouth and smoke and mirrors make them seem more all powerful than they actually are. It’s like the kid’s telephone game.
 Your family is just going through the phases. They may freak out after a while looking at Illuminati stuff, and they too may look for an escape and solution and find another Teal. It’s classic. It happened to so many. You’re not the first, and you're not the last.

CAMERON CLARK
 Oh. Awesome. I imagine that seems to be the natural process the spiritual predators like Teal are banking on too.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Do you know how Teal managed to meet this Sarbdeep guy anyway?

CAMERON CLARK
 Yes, Sarbdeep and Teal met because he was her bodyguard at her first London workshop. He had previously worked in politics and security. Teal was paranoid and claiming to need protection due to an alleged death threat. Sarbdeep apparently volunteered to be Teal’s bodyguard, or  was recommended by Pradeep Pranchimata or something. Pradeep is one of  the guys who helped organize Teal's London workshop. Apparently it was love at first sight. All very convenient and tidy. I recognize her blue “wedding ring” she has on in her blog wedding picture. It is also the ring that Teal bought herself at a jewelry store when we were all in Santa Fe last year. It's all so weird.

JESSICA SCHAB
 That is weird.

CAMERON CLARK
 I don't know. After what had happened to me during her New York workshop, my mind was all over the Illuminati thing for a while.

JESSICA SCHAB
 And married after only weeks. He feels like a real slimeball. I think he just wants to exploit her.

CAMERON CLARK
 It's incredibly strange, but then again this is Teal we are talking about. She is nothing if not impulsive with men. I imagine he does see an opportunity for sex, and dollars and cents to be made. Being a bodyguard and celebrity PA, he is likely to have a co-dependant rescuer personality type. He probably fell for Teal’s wounded bird act that she does so well.  He likely needs to rescue a psychologically disturbed damsel in distress to feel like a real man.  He has had  some interesting connections. He was a personal assistant to Madonna and Daniel Craig.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I do not know who Daniel Craig is, but yes it is convenient.

CAMERON CLARK
 He is the A-list actor from the James Bond movies. Just another clueless chosen Illuminati pawn put out front keep the masses entertained and distracted from what is really going on.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Does Teal even need a bodyguard, or is it her obsession to be protected from something no one can protect her from. which is her mind?

CAMERON CLARK
 YES! YOU NAILED IT.

JESSICA SCHAB
 We want people to protect us from our fears, but no one can protect us from our mind if we do not understand it. Our mind will turn on us, and make it hell for us.

CAMERON CLARK
 Teal lives in a constant hell.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Teal deserves it. I know I sound cold, but you sow what you reap. It’s not karma, but you can't treat people like that, and expect to have a pleasant mind. She is raping her mind constantly in this way.
I kind of upset LaVaughn, because I said soulmates is a new age scam.  She did not like that concept at all. Some people want to cling to their stuff, but it’s the interest in that stuff that makes them bait for these con artists. Unfortunately, they refuse to see it. The value they place on their beliefs is more important than their intelligence. It’s baffling and shocking at the same time

CAMERON CLARK
 Yes, I do think LaVaughn has some beliefs for sure that are opposing to the direction you and your partner would like to see. I heard about soul retrieval from LaVaughn’s site, and I actually had one done with a shaman friend of hers that she highly recommended. I wasn't yet ready to publicly address the Teal situation when I began corresponding with LaVaughn. She understood, but I know she is on board with speaking out. She encouraged me to speak out about this at some point when I was ready.
I agree Teal is in a prison of her own making. It isn't cold. It just is what it is.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Soul retrieval is dangerous too. Not because of evil spirits, but because you are just replacing one crazy belief system/healing method with another one. It’s understandable that people cannot see why right away. It takes time to understand and see why for themselves. They have to investigate and find out for themselves like what you're doing. You’re taking the time, so in time, it will be more clear why I say what I do.
 Though, I admit tact would help, if I had any. Yes, but nonetheless LaVaughn can still can help you, so that’s good. We do not have to go into the other stuff for now. It’s up to her if she wants to find out what that stuff really is and does.

CAMERON CLARK
 On the extrasensory front—Teal claims to have Synesthesia. She's had it since she was a child. It's a neurological disorder. She sees colors and tastes sounds, and all kinds of stuff.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I’ve heard of that. I even knew someone that had it. I do not think its fully true.

CAMERON CLARK
 So, that is why she probably makes up these stories of extrasensory abilities because she wants to feel special rather than defective. I think she was diagnosed as a child, because she was on sensory overload, and, her parents didn't know what to do with her.

JESSICA SCHAB
 It’s an easy thing to fake that no one can disprove.  Most people who have synesthesia  have a need to be special, so that’s convenient. Like Teal’s psychic abilities that only work on things she does not want,  and things not about her, but mainly about others. How convenient again. Her parents still don’t know what to do with her.

CAMERON CLARK
 I know, but she could hear phone conversations when Blake was on the phone all the way upstairs. She seemed to know what I was saying on the other line. Her hearing is really sensitive. I’m thinking her brain is messed up. Wired different. Maybe a little autism. Not special powers.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Maybe, I will see what I can find out. But synesthesia can be seen as special powers.

CAMERON CLARK
 Or just brain damage. Lol.

JESSICA SCHAB
 A person has really good hearing if they are slightly deaf. Certain frequencies get heightened.
 Do you think she has an IQ of 170?

CAMERON CLARK
 Could seizures have caused her kind of super sensitive hearing as well?
 As far as the IQ 170, idiot savant thing she claims to have going. Meh. I very much doubt it. I think she has done an awful good job of absorbing and parroting a lot of new age jargon from a lot of different sources. It's almost like everything she has ever read about, seen, or heard she remembers and can parrot on cue. She may have better memory than many people.  I think an  idiot savant is often a person with Asperger’s Syndrome. Just a high functioning autistic. Autistic people also can't relate well with others, and Teal is certainly emotionally/socially retarded in many ways. Autistic people are also the only ones in their world who have feelings. I think Asperger’s Syndrome is the least likely explanation in Teal’s case though. It leaves too many holes.  I feel as though she has studied socially acceptable responses to people’s pain and fakes her way through understanding their emotions by tapping into how she feels and projecting that onto others. She responds mechanistically to most emotional situations, and  in my observation there wasn’t any genuine empathy behind any of her actions. I felt like there was always a manipulative angle behind everything she did to make her appear in a certain light. I don't know what your thoughts are on the pathology of someone like Teal who was raised in a good family and turned out the way she has, but if she isn't a psychic vampire, leviathan, or reptilian. I  think she suffers from a co-occurrence of Borderline Personality Disorder and Narcissistic Personality Disorder and some sort of psychopathy. I think the Dissociative Identity Disorder schtick is something she confabulated, and she was likely misdiagnosed with during treatment with Barbara Snow. I feel like she is using DID, along with her satanic abuse backstory to manipulate, control, and guilt her family, followers, and men in her life into being her narcissistic food supply. DID is just a convenient cover up for her real disorders.
 Synesthesia was just one of the unanswered questions that cropped up.
 I also gathered some more  research on Teal’s old therapist Barbara Snow. This could be where Teal’s idea that she was ritually abused by Mormon Satanists came from. Evidently, Barbara Snow has been on the trail of the Mormon Satanists for quite a while, and she has been penalized for her obsession.  She was even caught by police implanting false memories in patients of hers who came forward as  witnesses during an investigation, and Barbara took a voluntary suspension.  If Barbara was creating false memory in clients, a borderline patient  like Teal would’ve been particularly vulnerable. Borderlines have a very weak ego structure, and define themselves by people they feel close to. It seems like Teal was already a very unstable woman when she went to see Barbara, who also happened to be a therapist with an agenda. Teal likely came out of five years of therapy with Barbara Snow. even more screwed up than when she went in.

JESSICA SCHAB
 That’s a good question about seizures.  I will see what i can find out. has she had them all her life?

CAMERON CLARK
 I don't  know if Teal has had seizures all her life, or at what age she began having them.
 I noticed Teal was particularly adept at trying to implant memories in all of us at vulnerable moments. It's like when you are in a state of shock or exhausted after a long game of her mental chess/shadow work, she would shock you with explicit details while walking you through some horrendous “memory” that she supposedly knew had happened to you. Later on, when you have recovered from the shock of it all, it’s difficult to decipher which part of the memory actually came from you, and what came from Teal. It's creepy. It's how she convinced Justin that he was brutally sodomized and had spikes driven through his body by gray aliens. Teal walked him through an alleged abduction describing what had happened to Justin and his sister to the point he was SCREAMING BLOODY MURDER upstairs. He threw something and almost broke her sliding glass closet door. I was so scared when I heard him that I thought I was going to have to call 911. He seemed to me to be having a psychotic break. Teal was the one guiding him through and describing the process. She also followed up with trauma release exercises, where he would have to exhaust his leg muscles by doing squats and then allowing his legs to convulse on the floor. I found this interesting to compare with how Teal dealt with her alleged “trauma” by inducing a sort of pseudoseizure after she would walk herself through reliving an alleged  traumatic memory. Justin had also considered driving right back home shortly after he had arrived at Teal’s. Teal had at one point convinced him that if he did leave, he would be a match to suicide. Needless to say, Justin ended up staying in Utah.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Well most people who see therapists do end up being more screwed up, so that is not surprising. Yes, I know how implanting works, and that is the prime time when to implant and manipulate. My gosh, I wonder if she studied this too. So if she can give others fake memories, she can do the same to herself.
 She wants everyone to be as hurt and messed up as her, so they can relate to her, protect her, and praise her.

CAMERON CLARK
 I think she can give the memories to herself now, but the therapist is the one who got the ball rolling. Teal probably confabulated on the foundation that was laid by Barbara Snow. She probably learned the process from her. Barbara sees a lot of ritual abuse victims. That's a strange specialty for a therapist.  I even personally know someone who went to see Barbara Snow for treatment, and upon her very first visit, Barbara tried to say that this person had repressed memories. This person then went for a second opinion to a different therapist in the area who revealed that Barbara has a terrible reputation in the community for thinking every patient and their dog has been raped and has repressed memories.
 Yes, I do think Teal wanted us all to be as messed up as her, so that we would not see her for what she was. She wanted us to protect her while being her narcissistic food supply and looking to her for answers.
 I haven't managed to tell the full story of all that happened to anyone aside from Scott who was a former Tealer whom I trusted.  It was a huge comfort being able to tell at least one other person who was far enough removed from Teal's inner circle, but who had also gotten close enough to Teal and Blake to recognize and understand what was going on. I met Scott at Teal's Santa Barbara workshop. Scott and Blake invited me out to a breakfast with Blake and Teal the day after her workshop. Scott had actually made the first official donations to Teal Eye LLC at that time, but then became disillusioned with Teal and Blake at the same time I had. He had even made the decision to move down to Utah at the same time I had, but fortunately for him, he never took the leap. He was a huge support for me after Shadow House, and was actually the first person who reached out to me on Facebook and recommended that I get away from those guys in Utah after seeing the unhealthy atmosphere on camera. I have learned through that whole mess that suppressing and refusing to examine painful experiences is really not the answer. I actually drove to visit Scott for a bit after I left Utah. Together, we tried to sort through a lot of the confusing and warped belief systems we had adopted since finding Teal. She certainly did some damage to the trust instincts, and took us both for one hell of a painful and confusing ride.
 Teal used and manipulated Scott as well. I watched  how Teal runs her game on nearly everyone she meets in person at her book-signings and workshops. I think the ideal marks for her are single, lonely, individuals.  People who meet Teal in person are usually star struck, and thus are in an easily suggestible state. They only see and hear what they want to during these meet and greets with Teal. They believe Teal speaks to them on a personal level, because she either recognizes them from another life or because she is psychic. In reality, Teal is just very manipulative, and adept at playing off of people’s outwardly apparent deficiencies. Teal appeals to people’s need for significance, often resorts to unctuous flattery, and tells people what she thinks they want to hear to feed their egos and their need to feel special when she meets her fans in person. The first thing Teal told Scott who is nearly 60 years old and new to spirituality was that she had been waiting for him when he met her in person at her workshop.  Scott told me that at first, he didn't really believe he was sexually attracted to her in any way, but it felt like she was almost coming onto him with her full body hugs and manipulative whispers of, "I love you" in his ear. She told him that they were lovers in several past lifetimes, and that they were going to be together again in this one. She even sent him a hand written thank you letter where she said meeting him was like reuniting a lost piece of her soul. Scott said he was so hypnotized by Teal after meeting her at her workshop, that he went home and donated a large sum of money to Teal Eye for a healing school that Teal apparently told him that he would be instrumental in helping her to start up one day.  He even gave his notice at his job, got a buyer for his house,  and told all of his family and friends about his plans to move down to Utah to help start up this school. Fortunately for him, he didn’t make the leap after one more breakfast in which Teal evaded all of his questions.  After inquiring further about Teal’s plans for the school via emails, and during another workshop in the months that followed,  Scott was effectively stonewalled by Teal, Blake, and Fallon. No healing school has been mentioned since. It was interesting to note that upon our first meeting with Teal at breakfast, Teal said the reason that Scott and I were getting along so well, and making such a connection was because he was actually my father in a past life. She claimed that he had abandoned our family in that life to become part of some religious order, and that eventually he became addicted to opium. She claimed it was a reunion, and she told me that it was very healing for Scott who had been carrying a lot of guilt. My contact with Scott was intermittent after that first meeting, but I did keep in touch with him via Facebook after that. I couldn’t help but notice that as soon as Scott started asking questions about the healing school, Teal vilified him behind his back to me and the other house members. Teal even  discouraged me going to visit him, because she claimed he was some sort of a womanizer. Then, when we met up with him at her Santa Fe workshop, Teal was polite to him in person, but when we got into the car Teal, debriefed us with her usual shit-talking session about her fans after the workshops.  I said that Scott invited me to come hang out with him and a group of the other Tealers at a big hotel suite that night. I only mentioned it to Teal, because I knew that Fallon and her might want some alone time at their hotel. They were trying to have a baby at that time, and I figured it might be fun for me to go socialize and take Scott up on that offer. But Teal interrupted with an outburst saying, “GOD, Scott is such a Succubus!”
 I was confused and alarmed by this at the time. First of all, I didn’t really think a man could be a succubus. Secondly, shouldn’t Teal’s psychic powers have picked up on this fact during her and Scott’s first meeting, before she decided to accept his donation? Lastly, I had been visiting with Scott over the course of the entire evening, and I didn’t feel any adverse effects or dangerous vibes coming from him. I explained this to her, and she claimed that the reason I didn’t feel it was because unbeknownst to me, she had been doing energy work on me all night to counteract him. (Wow…Thanks Teal… My very own unsung hero… Pffft…!! Lol). I eventually came to realize that this was total BS, and that this vilification of Scott was just a pattern with Teal. I don’t know if being a succubus is some deep seated  insecurity of Teal’s or what, but  once again, Teal projected her own brand of crazy onto someone and tried to discredit him to her followers, when he began asking questions and seeing through her charade. There are many adjectives I would use to describe Teal, but truthful and psychic wouldn’t be among them. I am glad I did not listen to Teal’s psychic character assassination of Scott. He has become one of my very good friends, and he is about as far away from a succubus as any man can get.

JESSICA SCHAB
 So many people that she has scorned and screwed are just waiting, but why have they all stayed silent?
 So, we have Teal to seduce the men.
 And Blake to seduce the woman.

CAMERON CLARK
 I know, it's sick.
 I found it interesting that most everyone in that house had some strange label for their sexual preferences. Flavia was a lesbian. Bonnie was pansexual. Graciela was a virgin, but Teal said she had the hots for her. Justin was gay, but he did say he would go straight just for Teal more than once. Teal, Blake, and Fallon are bi-sexual.  I believe Mark (her ex husband) and myself were identified as straight. So, that was quite the mix. Everyone in that group either had  a previous or current sexual relationship with Teal, or they admitted to wanting one with her. I was the only one not sexually attracted to Teal. From the beginning, I was only ever interested in being a friend to Teal and working with our group for a cause I believed in. Teal confessed she was confused by this, and didn’t really know where to put me. She said she was always confused about why any straight girls would ever want to be her friend. She claimed that due to her cult programming and her competitive mother daughter childhood dynamic, she assumed I either wanted to hurt her, destroy her, or get in the way of her and her men. She said the fact that I would only want to be her friend was a foreign concept to her. I believed her stories of abuse at that time, and I felt sorry for her when she told me that she felt that way about me. I actually felt like it must be a terrible way to live, thinking everyone who is nice and wants to be your friend only does so because they want to have sex with you. I was even naively hoping to be an example of how that isn’t always the way it has to be. This was to no avail, since Teal’s sexual allure is all part of the strange hold she uses to control and manipulate the people in her sphere. I think this lack of control over me was a main reason I was also the first person to leave our group. I have since learned that this is a pretty common control dynamic between cult leaders and cult members.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Yeah, that is quite the mix. Yes, it is very common to find this sort of thing in cults.

CAMERON CLARK
 Back to why people stay silent. Teal tries to make people seem like they are crazy when they leave her sphere. It’s actually called “gaslighting” in the psychological community and it is a hallmark of people with NPD. She projects her own disorders and toxic behavior onto other people in order to make it seem like they are the ones who have the problems. She does this under the guise of helping them, so most go off to suffer in silence and beat themselves up for not being good enough for Teal. They’ve often spent so much time twisting themselves into psychological pretzels just to please Teal, whom they believe is trying to help them, that it doesn’t occur to them that they are not even the ones with the problem. Teal is the borderline/narcissist, yet she projects her own disturbed pathology onto the people closest to her, and after prolonged exposure, it is contagious. If the all knowing, benevolent, ET Teal  can’t help them, or doesn’t like them, well they also start to internalize the idea that they must really be messed up. Maybe they even start believing that NOBODY can help them.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Very good, and very accurate . Yes, that is why they stay silent, and if we set this ball rolling, imagine how many others would come forward?

CAMERON CLARK
 I also think Scott was embarrassed that Teal initially passed his bs test, and he was taken for a ride. I think deep down, he felt stupid for falling for her nonsense. So, embarrassment may also be another reason people may choose to stay silent.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I wonder how many guys and girls she has told they were special to her, and had been lovers with her  in past lives. Gosh so much sex. Sex with everyone. I do not want to see her future community, or even how she would rule her countries. Constant orgies. Sorry Teal, it’s not possible to have sex with everyone from past lives and this life.

CAMERON CLARK
 Teal even told Justin that he was her Japanese Samurai husband in a past life. Teal told Justin and Graciela that they were also both her most devoted female worshippers serving her during her days as Shirdi Sai Baba in the temple. They both believed Teal wholeheartedly, which seemed to further solidify in their minds that it was always meant to be for them to be working for her again in this life.

JESSICA SCHAB
 What did Teal see you doing for her and her mission? I mean surely they considered you useful with your past skills and job experience.

CAMERON CLARK
 True to form, Teal  was vague in describing my exact role for her mission. Shortly after I arrived to Utah, as we were gathered around Teal’s kitchen table, I mentioned I felt like I would end up leaving this group eventually. Teal confirmed that yes, it was a possibility, but also stated rather cryptically that I would regret it. Teal also mentioned that my strengths were in organization, and although she knew that I didn’t yet believe I had found my soul’s purpose in life, she assured me that I had already found it. To say that I harbored some serious doubts about the likely success of Teal’s grandiose mission and my role in it, would be an understatement. I expressed my concerns to Teal in the car on the way to her Santa Fe workshop, and she explained that she viewed all of us “volunteers” a  little bit like thoroughbred horses that had been thrown together. She said we were still in training. She claimed that she wasn’t giving up on me, because she saw the future where I reminded her of the racehorse Seabiscuit, and I would be a very integral piece in helping with her mission. Blake, in particular, asked for my help in coordinating the volunteers, and planning Teal’s workshops and interviews. He was under a lot of pressure to do all the organizing himself.
 I just wanted to take this opportunity to again point out that these psychic powers Teal claims to have NEVER seemed to be accurate. I’ve seen more accurate predictions in fortune cookies. Just sayin’.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I want people to be aware of Teal’s patterns, so when they see her doing this to them, they can bust her right then and there. I want people to recognize this stuff so they are not only just able to bust Teal, but many other new age scam artists like her one after the other.
 What’s her ex-husband Mark like?

CAMERON CLARK
 Teal’s ex-husband Mark? It’s a long story.
 I felt like Teal was almost trying to push her ex-husband on me at one point. I’m still not completely sure what her game was. I didn’t know if she was testing me to find out my level of interest or what, but it was an awkward conversation.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Yeah, that is strange. I would feel awkward about that too. I’m amazed Graciela has been able to stay a virgin around those sex psychos.
 By the way, my partner has the same kind of super hearing you were mentioning with Teal. I’m going to look up seizures, who they effect, and what kind of effects on people’s psyche they can have. My partner says Teal is not a psychic, she is just a psychotic. You are correct about her not being able to feel empathy if she had Asperger's autism perhaps, but she is supposedly so sensitive and feels everything. She claims to feel everyone else’s pain because we’re all one, which is why she is on this Joan of Arc mission.

CAMERON CLARK
 Teal has an overtly sexual nature. I quickly learned that nobody in her presence for long is exempt from hearing her gloating tales meant to illustrate her sexual prowess. She even made a couple of passes at me just to test the waters. These passes consisted of several vulgar and aggressively blunt sexual remarks addressed to me at different times. They seemed like tests for her to gauge how I would respond.  I always responded calmly and rationally, and I did nothing to encourage any further advances. These comments might have flattered some girls or even been a turn on in some circles, but they came across as sleazy and disingenuous to me. They only ever had the effect of making me feel uneasy about Teal’s intentions. I assumed an intuitive like Teal  would have been able to see what I was feeling, and I figured she knew when she was making me uncomfortable, but she just didn’t care. Teal eventually understood I wanted nothing to do sexually with her, or her exes. Although, I think she would have been nicer to me if she thought I was attracted to her like the other guys and girls were. Blake didn't work out, because he had already lied to me about the relationship he had with Teal, so I couldn't trust him. She finally tried to test out whether I would go for her ex-husband. She asked me one night how I felt about Mark. I just told her that he was a very nice guy, but I’m not exactly sure what he wants. She told me he was interested in a relationship. I told her I wasn't ready for a relationship with anyone at that time. I told her I was in too selfish of a place to be in a relationship, and I needed to work on myself. I told her that if I am not happy with the relationship I have with myself, a relationship with somebody else isn’t going to end up being what I want either. Teal  immediately scoffed at this idea. She tried to do shadow work with me after that. She even proffered the argument that relationships are the heart of expansion. She seemed frustrated with me when I was still resistant to the idea of jumping headfirst into a relationship. I had refused to buy her load of BS. By that time, I had made up my mind that Teal was the last person I would ever take relationship advice from.  I could already tell that Teal’s idea of a relationship was my nightmare. I was actually terrified at the thought of getting emotionally entangled with any guy connected to Teal.
Teal tried to make it seem like the fact that she could remain living in the same house with her exes and current lovers was an attestment to how conscious, evolved, and progressive her “intentional community” was. In reality, she basically sucked the life out of both Mark and Blake, and I was watching as she was completely turning Fallon into her puppet. These guys were completely brainwashed puppies when it came to her. Before filming our second to last live stream webisode of Shadow House, Teal insistently begged her newly-ex-husband Mark to join the group of us, around her kitchen table, in order to participate on camera in the show. He actually refused, but it was clear that Teal was not used to him telling her no. In response to her repeated pleas, Mark eventually asked Teal why she wanted him to be on camera so badly. She said, “Because. Because I want you to.”
Not meaning to be insulting, I suggested that if Mark was on the show, perhaps it would show how amicable Teal’s divorce was, and she could show her audience how she and Mark were still cohabiting in an intentional community.
Teal instantly took offense and went on a seething tirade, saying, “That’s the bitchiest thing you’ve ever said to me! See-- this is exactly why I need to only have famous friends, because people think I’m always concerned about my image, and famous friends would understand me better.”
 I noticed that Mark would come running whenever she called. Mark had also spent the most amount of time in therapy with Teal, so it was almost like Teal needed Mark to stick around and train the new men in Teal’s life how to handle Teal. They needed to be by her side to walk her through all of her various theatrical mental breakdowns and “triggered” episodes that she was experiencing almost daily around that time. Mark and Blake stayed living in the bedrooms on either side of Teal’s while she was fucking Fallon in the middle room upstairs. I don't even know where to begin with how strange that living environment is. I got the impression that Mark stayed for Teal’s mental stability, and their son’s sake. Mark shared his room with Winter across from Teal at that time.  I don't know why Mark would put himself through that situation, unless he was seriously worn down by Teal or incredibly masochistic.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Sex is a good way to manipulate and control. She thought she could convert you or control anyone she wanted with her powers, and you proved her wrong.  So you were obviously crazy, evil. Lol.

CAMERON CLARK
 I now see how having me see her ex could have been another form of control for Teal. If she could control the man I was seeing, she could potentially control me. Plus, I think Teal may have at first even considered it a convenient situation to have another person  taking care of her son.

JESSICA SCHAB
 When my partner made his pictures of Teal, people were like. oh, he has a crush on her. He was like, ”Eww. I’d rather Spock or Captain Kirk if I had to choose between the three.” And he is not gay at all. I thought that was pretty funny. I wished Teal could have heard it.

CAMERON CLARK
 Haha! Spock over Teal any day. Gay or straight, that is definitely the better choice!

JESSICA SCHAB
 How did Mark feel about being offered to you?

CAMERON CLARK
 I never could tell what Mark actually felt. Mark is one of the first people I’ve ever met that I wasn’t able to get an emotional read on right away. I even told him so. Mark shows very little emotion. He did seem interested at first. He also seemed very sweet, considerate, and intelligent after spending more time around him.  He was a really good dad to Winnie too. He showed up at my apartment once when I was sick with the flu. He got my phone number from Fallon, and texted me from the parking lot asking to come up to check on me. I didn't want to let him in at first, because I don't really like company when I am ill. But, I did end up letting him come in, and he just stayed overnight with his hand on my stomach. He also come downstairs when we were at Teal's house, and we just laid in bed and watched movies. Nothing ever happened.

JESSICA SCHAB
 My partner is like, who the heck wants to stay with a woman like that? It’s clear it would be total hell.
So Mark was under order to seduce you as well, but you had to make the first move? Why did Teal chose to marry Mark of all the partners she can have? What could he do for her that others could not?

CAMERON CLARK
 If I had shown more interest, I think something absolutely could have happened with Mark. Mark is an incredibly patient, consistent, and laid back guy. He had also been the financial breadwinner during the course of their marriage. It seemed that he allowed Teal to easily manipulate and mold him into what she wanted. I think he had  the right personality and temperament to be able to put up with her high maintenance, narcissistic theatrics without getting too stressed or emotional himself over the years. She puts a whole lot of pressure on her men, and relies on them heavily for every aspect of her well being. Teal is the only one allowed to have volatile emotions, so Mark’s laid back, stoic nature would be a good fit for Teal. There aren’t too many men I’ve met who would be willing to put up with Teal long term the way Mark was able to hang in there. But Mark still seemed almost like a zombie to me once Teal was through with him. I feel like in order to cohabitate with Teal for very long, the men in her life almost act like they have undergone a partial lobotomy.

JESSICA SCHAB
 How do these people not have sexual diseases?

CAMERON CLARK
 Teal explained once why she had never gotten an STD. She claimed she had never known anything other than a promiscuous lifestyle from the time was young. Therefore, she didn’t have the same conditioning around sex that most people have. Teal claimed she didn’t have fear, resistance, and guilt around the subject of sex in general. Teal stated that the reason people end up being a vibrational match to STDs in the first place is ALWAYS due to their fear of, resistance to, and guilt surrounding the act of sex. So, basically, Teal claimed that her childhood abuse allowed her vibration relative to sex to remain so high, that she was immune to STDs.
 I was relieved that other people in the spiritual community are finally willing to point out what Teal is about. You and Lavaughn seem to be getting the ball rolling so far. I’ve met several other psychics and shaman that quietly warn clients like myself about the dangers of getting mixed up with Teal, but they refrain from going public with this information. It's like they want to ride Teal's coattails. They know she is bad news, but they won't dare say anything, because they might not get a chance at an interview with her, or invite her to a conference that would boost their ratings.

JESSICA SCHAB
 For us, we were upset at  how so many people were saying your work and Teal’s work are so similar, because we both deal with fear. So we decided to check her out.   We soon learned that we’re not the same at all. She is the total opposite of what we are trying to do. Then we had people writing us saying, “ I love your work, and Teal’s.” We were concerned. People would always be saying, “Yes I agree with you that most new age speakers are a scam, but not Teal.” Ugh.

CAMERON CLARK
 No way. That's terrible.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Yes it was so offensive. So we started investigating, but my partner had her pegged from the get-go. Unfortunately, she just kept being mentioned to us. So we realized that many that follow us still do not understand what we are trying to do.  So we decided, let’s help them to understand what we are trying to do  via Teal as an example. Teal is just one of many other scam artists we use like Tolle, Wilcock, Amma, Deepak, Lilou, Clair Prophet, and so many others.

CAMERON CLARK
 I see how people get addicted to their spiritual drug dealers who are dispensing new beliefs that will allow them to feel better about their painful situations. It absolves them from responsibility to actually make changes in their lives, because everything is so divine and perfect the way it is. I was really stuck on another guru’s teachings, right up until I found you guys. This guru mentions quite frequently our galactic brothers and sisters coming to assist. I may have unfortunately only replaced one fucked up belief system with another after Teal.

JESSICA SCHAB
 I think ET’s are freaked out and want nothing to do with humans. Confusion in contagious. Are we really so naive to think we can escape our responsibility and messes so easily? How can we believe that ET’s will come and save us and fix everything and clean our mess for us? How will we ever learn or understand, if we are all hopped up on bliss and love?
 If you were an ET, would you want to channel or talk to a human knowing how messed up and confused they are? Would you contact a human knowing they would most likely deem themselves “special” and make a circus road show out of your message, twisting it into shit about abundance and such?
 I guess in Teal’s head she thinks its fine to make up stories about satanic cult abuse. For one, she has a morbid fascination with it, and maybe even a fantasy of it. Like you noted, she even mentioned having rape fetishes with Fallon. Also in Teal’s mind it is true, because it did happen to others but they are not public about it. So Teal feels she is exposing the satanic cults by speaking out about them in this way.  She is actually promoting and protecting them as well. If that really happened to her, why does she not not go after them directly? Why doesn’t she find the evidence or families of the children she helped lure and kill.
 Also if she has a super memory, how come she reads her own script for her videos? Its obvious she is reading because her eyes look away like she is reading from a teleprompter. It’s very journalistic. I bet you know exactly how those videos are born and put together

CAMERON CLARK
 Yes, I watched what she does. She would usually type her episodes up a couple of hours before Blake filmed her. She doesn't practice reading or anything. I've watched her. Blake has what she typed on a screen in front of her. Then she posts what she typed up in her Ask Teal episode in the articles section on her site. She goes off script at times, but only occasionally. She probably only spends about 3-5 hours a week, total prepping to make those ask Teal videos, and that's being generous. Blake shoots and edits the videos, adds the backgrounds and pictures, and does all the technical stuff. She just critiques it, and has him tweak things sometimes before Blake uploads the video.

JESSICA SCHAB
 What is up with her terrible, crappy, church stain glass window art that is said to activate your 3rd eye or some stupid shit like that? It does not activate your brain, that’s for sure.

CAMERON CLARK
 I feel like so many people are hypnotized or brainwashed by that crappy art. I have honestly wondered what kind of portals, or childish black magic sigils she is trying to include in her “art.”

JESSICA SCHAB
 It really is terrible. Its like a four year-old colored it. But stamp the word divine on this, make false promises about it,  and there you go. People flock to it. My goodness we were not born this stupid.
 So Teal’s pictures do not work online. You have to buy them for them to actually activate your second anus or something? Wow, how convenient.
 Back to her videos. If she has a super memory, why does she need to read and rehearse? And laugh at odd times? Does she rehearse for her conferences to?

CAMERON CLARK
 Haha! Activate your second anus? That’s hilarious. Well, her artwork claims are just that ridiculous. Fallon did say if we wanted to try to go for something actionable, we should try to get the FDA to go after Teal for the medical claims she says about her paintings. She claims her paintings have healing effects on people, and this should legally be evaluated, or the FDA could shut her down.
 My mom actually tried to warn me about Teal’s odd laughing too. She saw one of her videos before I moved down to Utah. It was on autism, and I showed it to her, because we have some autistic cousins in our family.  My mom just stopped the video and said, "she laughs at inappropriate times." She couldn’t even finish watching it. That was a red flag in itself. Hello Cameron, that woman is completely unhinged. SIGH. It's so hard when I look back at stuff sometimes.
 As far as the super memory thing goes in regards to reading a script during her Ask Teal videos, that’s a good question. I don’t exactly know why she needs to read a script . Maybe because she doesn’t have to think so hard, and also her eyes might even be moving back and forth so much because she is so busy admiring herself in the the two different camera angle monitors Blake shoots her with.
 No, her workshops are live, not rehearsed. She calls audience members up for questions. She claims to read their vibrations and chooses audience members with questions that would most benefit the collective asking by having them come up on stage. She claims that by doing it this way, she is synchronizing the vibrations of the entire audience. I have noticed though, that she usually picks people she knows or recognizes from previous workshops or her meet and greets. Not to mention the fact that for being able to see people’s thoughts and vibrations, she has been entirely OFF in picking audience members at times. One odd woman just came up on stage and stared Teal down during her Santa Fe workshop. That left most people feeling eerie rather than synchronized and high vibrational. Then there was a guy that just came up and started singing a song to Teal instead of asking a question at her New York workshop. It seemed like that caught Teal by surprise, and I caught an eye roll from her. I talked to quite a few people who had some very good questions ready, and they had paid money to see Teal. Several people actually expressed that they were kind of annoyed that she wasted everyone’s time using her psychic powers to read the vibration of a goofy guy who wanted to come up and show off by singing her a song.
 I did have a really weird experience with her jewelry. Teal thought that Blake had put one of her pendants together backwards or with the picture upside down at one point. The guys in the house had tested it, and I just happened to show up after they were done. I walked in, and the first thing Fallon says is, “try this on and tell me where you feel it.” I didn't even look at the pendant or have a clue what it was. Fallon put it on me, and I said, “throat,” because I felt it tingling. Then Fallon flipped the pendant around and asked where I felt it again. I said I feel something in my heart, because I felt a tingling sensation in my chest area. They all looked shocked. Especially Teal.  Apparently, that pendant was actually her painting that was supposedly made to help a person speak from the heart. It was supposedly backwards, according to Teal, which is why all the guys reported that they were feeling it in their root chakra. I don’t know. I wasn't a fan of her art at all, but I really did feel tingling in those areas when Fallon put the pendant on me. So I don't know if she is affecting people's energies with this crap. Even the fact that I felt it the way I was supposed to, and Teal thought it was backwards, kind of has me worried.
 A lot of people report feeling agitated by staring at Teal’s “art” for long.

JESSICA SCHAB
 Again, it’s the power of suggestion, hypnosis, and yes manipulation of energies or a person’s mind. No matter what, in that situation, she looks like she really is a psychic, and therefore, seems more legit to everyone. It makes her look like she knows what she is doing with her paintings. But Teal is on a train heading off the cliff, and she is about to take many with her. If she is stopped from doing what she is doing, then her followers would have to go back home and find out their parents are not as bad as Teal made them out to be.

CAMERON CLARK
 I was unsuspecting with that pendant scenario. I didn't even see the pendant when Fallon put it on me, nor did I know the backstory. I did not know what the painting was, until after I had already told them what I felt. I actually felt those things. How could I have been hypnotized or suggested?

JESSICA SCHAB
 When you’re around them, they can make you feel what they want. Even far away, the power of suggestion is very strong and used in marketing a lot. But even if you feel something in your throat or heart, does that help your mind and your  confusion? Or is it just an impressive party trick? The mind is still struggling, and still a mess. All that Teal can do, all her powers and connection to source, or whatever she claims, can not help her help herself . They cannot help her mind, nor anyone else’s mind. They are all still a mess and addicted to whatever bread crumbs she throws out just to show others that she can.

CAMERON CLARK
 Hmmmm. No, I didn't understand. I was confused. The fact that she claimed the pendant was actually backwards, but I felt tingling in the areas it was supposed to be working, did NOT bolster my faith in Teal’s abilities one bit. So, I wasn't sure why she would have done something like that.

JESSICA SCHAB
 It gives her more validation.

CAMERON CLARK
 Ahhhh. That makes sense. It was to impress Fallon I’m sure. Ok. Lol.

JESSICA SCHAB
 It was to impress everyone, even herself. It was to make her feel that she really is special and better than everyone else. It was to make people feel like her. even though she is unable to feel others pain just her own. No one will ever be able to heal like her.

CAMERON CLARK
 I know. Teal is hands down the most narcissistic person I’ve ever met. Her grandiosity is astounding. She would constantly proclaim that she is the best at everything she does.  Teal said, ‘I don’t know of any other energy healers that can heal the way I do, or that can do what I do... I’m the best spiritual teacher. I’m the best at what I do..”
Teal said that she could never have any close female relationships, because they always ended up turning on her after becoming too jealous and insecure about Teal’s beauty.


JESSICA SCHAB
 I saw in her videos how she always mentions she is the best, and so smart, and so pretty, and blah blah blah… She is such a big fan of herself. I watched like 5 mins of the master manifestor tea time video, and wrote so many comments there. Surprisingly, they have not been deleted. Did you ever see any drug use while in that house?

CAMERON CLARK
 The only drug use I saw was when Blake took a whole eye dropper full of medicinal Cannabis oil and was sick and throwing up for two days straight. Teal was furious when it happened, because she claimed he had relapsed after 10 years, and it was a trigger for her. She threw the bottle away.
 I thought it was odd. Teal made it seem as if it was Blake who had a drug problem when they met 10 years ago.I was told that Teal was hooked on drugs as well, due to her abuser supposedly injecting her with Ketamine. My guess is that the were both were co-dependant drug users when  they met, and they likely  "recovered" together.
 Teal had previously mentioned being addicted and doing cocaine and ketamine when she was a model during her teenage years. She explained it away, saying it was because her abuser had injected her with ketamine and other psychedelics so often as a child. I didn't see how that was like cocaine at the time, but whatever. I suppose it could lead to other dependency. The other thing I know is that people who do Ketamine sometimes experience what is referred to as the “K-hole.” Ketamine users often come back reporting mystical, grandiose experiences after their out of body hallucinations. I wonder if Teal confabulated her back stories based on some trippy drug experiences from her days of admittedly being a K-head.
 Teal also recommended I take Ayahuasca. I thought it was odd that I was the only one in the house she "prescribed" (her word) Ayahuasca to. She got me connected with a legal group and everything. The first time was very interesting. Very mild auditory and a few visual hallucinations. I made some life affirming connections, but I just had other expectations after that I guess. I didn't even get sick like everyone else, so I thought I was doing it wrong. I was not overly impressed the second time I went. I spent hundreds of dollars, and I don't think it really changed much for me.
 I also know that a married couple who Teal was renting her basement out to before the cult arrived ended up leaving in a hurry. The husband called the cops on Teal soon after we first got there. I remember Teal was freaked out saying police were a “trigger” for her. Teal had apparently violated their lease agreement or something weird along those lines. So, that was another red flag that was overlooked.

JESSICA SCHAB
 So Teal’s former tenants called the cops on Teal for violating their lease agreement.

It’s not her psychotic abuser’s fault she was on drugs. He must know her well, if she chose to pin it all on him. I wonder what he has on her? Hahaha yeah, ketamine is nothing like cocaine. Ah, so that is what she means in her blogs when she says, “ I was out of body again today”. It’s just a show. Most likely she is pulling from her experiences of a past mixture of drugs for sure. Ayahuasca can mess people up too. You did it? Ah, you wrote about it. I see. You are not affected by it. How strange she recommended that just you should take it. Maybe to control you better? I wonder how much Teal gets for being a spiritual pimp and recommending people to this ayahuasca group?

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